Erratic

Erratic: Chapter 27: Hole in her heart.

||MACY||

"Yeah! OMG that was so embarrassing!" I laughed as Reece and I recalled what had happened this morning. I accidentally let out a loud but short burp when we were talking and some people saw and stared at me with strange looks that was too hilarious not to remember.

"Bro! What's up?" I heard someone really familiar say to the person near us who is 2 bags away from Reece. Beau?

I turned and my thoughts were confirmed, Beau is near us and he's just two bags away from us. This is the closest he's been since he started ignoring us. I excused myself from Reece and slowly took a step towards Beau.

"Beau..." I said silently and he kept ignoring me, he just kept talking to his friend with his back towards me.

"Beau..." I muttered a little louder than before but he continued to ignore me and I noticed that he made his voice louder whilst talking to his friend.

"Beau..." I said in my normal voice volume.

"WHAT?" He yelled as he turned towards me, "WHAT DO YOU WANT?"

My chest tightens and my chest area suddenly feels painful. Beau had never yelled at me. He knows that I hate it when people yell at me. Did I really loose him and has no way of getting him back?

"Can we please talk?" I asked weakly.

"NO." Beau please... don't do this to me. Don't be cold-hearted towards me... I'm sorry Beau..

"Please Beau..." I plead.

"I ALREADY SAID NO! WHAT DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND HUH? N.O. NO! NO AS IN 'I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU'. SO JUST LEAVE ME THE F*CK ALONE ANDERSON." Beau yelled at my face. He had never cussed at me before. He can't even say my nickname. I guess our friendship is gone? I know that not being loved by the person you love is a big deal but I wanted to keep being friends with him. He was a great 'brother' to me. I miss him.

I stepped back and lowered my head to the ground as I weakly said, "I'm sorry" By now my heart is beating erratically and every beat that it makes feels likes it's killing me.

"Woah man! You don't have to yell at her. All she wanted was to talk to you." Chase butts in. Oh no.

Beau glared at Chase and then snarls, "Don't 'man' me! We're not pals Alberg and why don't you tell her to stop being annoying so that I won't yell at her. Also teach her what 'No' and 'Leave me alone' means because I don't think she gets the idea." 

My tears started streaming down my face. I didn't know that the person who makes me smile whenever I was sad or mad could cause me immense pain now. If I had a choice to return his feelings, I probably would do that but I don't.

"Stop Beau! You weren't like this before!" Chase argued.

"Yeah I wasn't! I wasn't like this before you two played with my feelings and f*cked me up!" Beau screams.

We didn't play you Beau. I wouldn't do that to you.

"We didn't do that Beau." Chase says, "Let's just go Macy".

Once Chase pulled me far away from Beau, he then settles my head onto his chest for me to cry on.

"I didn't want to hurt him Chase. I didn't. I just miss him Chase, I want us to return back to normal. I don't want him ignoring me. It hurts so much Chase. It hurts me too." I sobbed.

"Shhh.. Everything's going to be okay.. Shhh" Chase tried to soothe me.

"It's hurting me so much Chase. It's also hurting me." I continued to say as I sobbed with my heart feeling immense pain.

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 I miss Beau. I miss him. I miss our times together. I miss his cheese ravioli. I miss his cooking. I miss his face. I miss his hair. I miss him. I miss Beau Weiss. Why did it have to turn into this? Why is it like this? Why couldn't I just love Beau and not like Chase? Why did I have to like Chase in the first place when Beau likes me? Why is fate like this? Why do-

"Macy? Are you alright? You've been playing with your food." Mum asks me.

I nodded and tried to eat the spaghetti bolognaise in front of me whilst my family members stared at me with worried expressions.

"So how are your friends?" Mum asks me as she cuts a meatball in half and stabbed it with a fork.

"Bree, Lilliane and Kandice are doing pretty well in school even though they have their boys in their life. Theo, Jane, Samantha, Shirley, Reece, Hayden, Katie, Tina, Bella and Chase are doing pretty good too. Shirley is getting really high grades in her classes, Hayden still hasn't told Bree that he likes her. Everything is just the usual actually." I said in a monotone voice.

"What about Beau?" Dad asks curiously, "I actually haven't seen him in a while."

I froze in my spot and stared at the microscopic dust on the table.

"H-h-...H-h-he... We don't-... We don't really talk anymore." I stuttered.

My parents, Max and Macky looked at me with shocked expressions.

"What? Why?" Max asks hesitantly.

Tears then starts to stream down my face as I tell them everything. From the confession, the lies that he told me up to what had happened earlier. My family hugs me and then goes back to their seats.

By the end of everything, my chest starts tightening once again. This time it's too much to handle. I then drop my cutleries onto the plate and starts digging my fist onto my chest as I try to stop the pain. My parents then stood up looking alarmed.

"Macy. Macy. Tell me what's going on. Macy." Dad asks in an alerted tone.

"It... My chest hurts so much." I said as a tear streams down my left cheek.

My Mum and Dad shares an alarmed, worried and knowing look and they both rushed up and off the table.

"Code hole." My Mum says hysterically as she dials someone’s number on her phone.

My brothers seems to get the message as they also stood up and Max began to clean everything up and put them on the sink and Macky then goes up to me and holds my hands.

My Dad runs off somewhere ad Macky talks to me.

"Stay awake Macy... Stay awake. We'll get you to the hospital soon." Macky tries to soothe me but with this immense pain on my chest, I don't think I could keep calm. It's hurting so much.

"It hurts." I cried.

"I know. I know. Please stay awake." Macky says.

"Ok. Let’s go." I hear my Mum announce as I felt Macky carry me.

My head started spinning and everything seemed blurry. Breathing doesn't help me with my situation since every time I would breathe, I would feel stings on the part where my heart lays.

"MACY! MACY! STAY AWAKE! OPEN YOUR EYES!" I heard Max yell as someone shakes me.

I feel so weak. I feel like I can't take anything anymore. Everything starts to fade out and the last thing that I heard was

"The hole in her heart is opening up again"

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