Erratic

Erratic: Chapter 22: Conversation with Chase.

||MACY||

I was stuck thinking about Beau's confession and what my answer would be for his question. I don't know if I should say yes or no. I don't want to rush and say yes immediately because there's still something in me that's telling that's there's a possibility that Chase could still ask me to be his date to prom but then I didn't want to go ahead and just say no because it might hurt him and I don't want to do that to him.

But then that's the thing as well... I don't want to say yes just for him to think that I feel something towards him. I don't want to say yes and lead him on. I like Chase a lot and I don't think anything could change my feelings for him anytime soon. If I make him think that I feel something towards him when I actually don’t, then that would hurt him a lot and I don't want to do that.

Since I just finished with my Advanced Math class, I went ahead and walked to my secluded spot since it was my last free period for today and I need to do some deep thinking, then after my free period, I would the have to go and go to my last class for today which is Media.

I reached my spot but then jumped back because I saw Chase there, with his back against the wall, sitting on the floor and his hands covering his face. Should I leave? What do I do? Is he crying? What's happening? I turned to walk away so that I could leave him alone, he probably doesn't want anyone with him right now. 

Damn. Someone else knows about my private place? I thought this place was my escape, turns out it was his as well. At least we both share something between us.

*sniffles*

I immediately retreated. He's crying and I can't just leave a friend who's crying behind. (Well unless they did something wrong to me and all that) He continued crying and my heart keeps breaking whenever I would hear him sniffle. I sat next to him and rubbed his back that made him throw his head up and look towards my direction.

"Macy...." Chase muttered weakly as he tried to stand up. I immediately grabbed his hand, stopping him and then I pulled him towards me, giving him a hug and I didn't hesitate one bit. I heard him sniffle as he hugged me back tightly, a few droplets of his tears dampening my shirt.

OMG I'm hugging him. I'm hugging Chase, the guy that I like. EEEE

Brain, now's not the time.

"What's wrong Chase?" I asked worriedly as I rubbed his back.

"I lost her Macy. I was too late. I was too late to notice my feelings for her." Chase muttered, "I was going to ask her to prom but then someone had to do it before me. I was all too late. She already has a date to prom"

A tear flowed down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. This broke my heart even more. Chase is crying because the girl that he has feelings for now has a date to prom. Chase must've liked her so much. He must've liked Blaire so much. I didn't know that Blaire already had a date though...

"It's alright... maybe you got it all wrong, maybe she doesn't have a date yet... and even if Blaire does, you could still confess to her, I mean you already confessed to her before so clearly, you could do it again." I told him soothingly even though it was breaking my heart.

Chase pulled away from the hug and I saw that he stopped crying and is just sniffling now.

"What are you talking about? I wasn't talking about Blaire... I would promise that I have never asked Blaire to prom, never will." Chase frowned which made my heart leap. If it's not Blaire then who is it? Could it be- Could it be me? NO MACY! You're not the only one that got asked to prom today, also, Chase did say that she already has a date and I haven't said yes to Beau yet so technically, I don't have a date yet... and besides, Chase liking you Macy? IN YOUR DREAMS!