JENLISA - BEFORE STAGE

J - 8

"You look adorable."

I beamed at Lisa, she's wearing a simple yellow hoodie, her all time go-to jeans and white sneakers. She ponytailed her hair that made her even cuter, I wasn't expecting that we'd choose the same 'laid back' style for our outfit today — soulmates? I chose to wear my comfy green sweater and a casual apple green plaid pants, no make up, just messy bun.

"Gosh, is this dejavu? Except for the fact that right now you two are holding hands," Rosie's leaning at the front door, crossed arms while mischievously smirking.

"Who's holding hands?" Jisoo's walking over while carrying Dalgom on her right arm.

"The newly weds, unnie," Rosie pointed at us while swinging back and fort her right leg.

"So you guys are really a thing now, huh?" Jisoo said, Lisa shrugged her shoulders then looked at me.

"I don't know either," I shook my head, "we just decided to hang out today and maybe patch or probably clear things from the past?" I averted my gaze at Lisa.

"Yah," she smiled timidly before pursing her lips.

"Well go! Don't forget your masks, hoodies, sunglasses on and do not ever make an eye contact to people," Jisoo pointing at us alternately.

"Unnie, none of those people knows anything, it's just you and Rosé so what's the point of hiding? We'd look more suspicious if we'd hide. This isn't a couple date thing, it's pure friendship," Lisa shrugged, avoiding eye contact from any of us.

"Is it?" Jisoo pouted.

"It is," Lisa nodded.

"Whatever you say, newly washed hair girl!" Rosé rolled her eyes.

What can I say? Lisa's right when she said this isn't a couple date, this is just a friendly café date of two old friends who's trying to patch a hole from the past. I'm a bit worried right now, coz our first date did go well but the next morning was a disaster. Why does it always have to be that way? Like a night of joy and pleasure can bring you an instant emotional pain the next day. It's happening over and over, I can't control fate.

First, our cafe date — it was awesome and refreshing but the next day, we had a huge fight with so much tears and emotional breakdown.
Second, we patched things up over dirty dishes and warm milk but during rehearsals, she ignored me like that talk never happened. Third, we accidentally met at han's river and had an amazing chat but the next thing I knew, she acted stiff and awkward at Jisoo's room when we got stuck together.
Fourth, last night we indirectly confessed our feelings for each other and today, we are on a date?

I don't want to expect too much. I'm really scared of what might happen next, coz it's like a cycle on good things to bad things that never ends.

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MY SIDE OF THE STORY — throwback

ft dirty dishes & warm milk

I saw Lisa standing at the dining counter, probably thinking what kind of help she could offer me. I smiled, she's just so cute while nibbling her lower lip. I'm smiling by myself and I don't want her to notice that.

"Lili, it's okay, I can handle this. Go to your room now and rest," I started to collect the dirty dishes to divert my orbs from eyeing my lovely Lalisa.

"It's fine, I'd like to help you," she insisted, I was internally screaming coz she chose to stay, I swear to god my knees were trembling.

"I'm sorry for the things I've said," I blurted nervously, I just had to let it out.