JENLISA - BEFORE STAGE

L - 4

"It's fine."

I do not know what exactly to answer. I'm still in a state of shock though my heart screams 'it was so satisfyingly awesome, my first and the best kiss of all time,' a part of me was still questioning her motives, like why the hell did she do that?

I'm guessing, maybe because she's under the influence of alcohol? She's drunk and being playful, so I'd rather not take this seriously. This is prolly just how Ruby Jane is when she's drunk, she becomes a tease. I do not want to keep my hopes too high.

"Just fine? How'd you rate me? One to ten, one as the lowest and ten as the highest," her eyes were twinkling while pouting adorably — she's so cute!

"Why should I do that?" I pretended not to fall for her charm by smirking and lowkey rolling my eyes.

"Just rate me, P!" she poutingly demanded showing off her cute plummy cheeks.

"Are you nuts? Go to sleep, you're too drunk. You won't probably remember a thing tomorrow."

I helped her to get up then positioned her comfortably on her bunk. She lied down then scooted over, leaving a little space for me to lie beside her. She turned to her side then lightly tapped the bed, signaling me to move over. I lied down beside her while staring at those cute rainbow stickers at the bottom of the top deck.

"If you do not want to rate me, let me do the honors of rating your performance tonight. I'd give you a 6.5, not bad for a first timer," she grabbed my waist and turned me to face her, oh god she's beautiful.

"I'm flattered," I quickly darted her eyes then positioned back to staring at those cute rainbow stickers.

"But you can still improve your score," she held my waist to face her once more then intently stared at me with shimmer in her eyes, "come a little closer and change my rating," she winked teasingly, I covered my mouth.

"Pranpriya, pranpriya.." her voice is like a soft whisper that sounded like she's seducing me while caressing my hair.

Here we go again. She's slowly killing me deep inside, I'm starting to lose my sanity. If I wouldn't think that she's drunk, I'd be pulling her and be kissing her all night til both our lips bleed to death, jeez looks like someone just gained confidence after having her first kiss? Lol. But seriously, I can't! I can't just do that and take advantage of the situation. I have this huge respect for my best friend.

"Come here, I'll help you get up. You need to wash your face and drink some water, it'll help you."

"Oh god, P! My world's spinning right now."

She's squeezed her eyes shut while holding unto my arm tightly. I put her back to a lying position then wet a small towel and started to wipe her face, neck, nape and arms. Soon after, I helped her to get up and asked her to drink some cold water to refresh her system.

"Can you cuddle me? I need comfort tonight," she baby talked as soon as she laid back on bed. Oh god, she is my damn kryptonite.

"Why? What's wrong? Are you sad?" I caressed her hair, taking silent but deep sighs.

"Just sleepy and I want you beside me always," she pulled me to lie beside her, embraced me then snuggled her face on my neck. I froze for the nth time.

My whole existence is screaming 'I wish we could stay like this forever,' I can't help but shower her head with smooches over and over while she's sleeping. She smelled and looked like strawberries, sweet and red. Plus her cute little snores gave me ear-gasms, ehe! After a while, I heard a knock on the door.

"Hey, Miyeon! Is there a problem?"

"Nothing, I just dropped by to check on Jennie because I heard she got scolded earlier today," she's trying to peep at the door but I didn't allow her to.

"For what?" I asked sternly.

"Didn't she tell you? She's still using her old facebook account to contact her friends and a YG staff saw leaked photos of Jennie being intimate with a girl," I was surprised and prolly a bit jealous? But I didn't let her see that through my facial expression, I acted as if it's not a big deal.

"What's wrong with that? She was prolly just having some quality time with her girl-best-bud," I forced a smile then shrugged my shoulders.

"Does torrid kissing screams girl-best-bud to you?" she raised her eyebrow while smirking sarcastically, I pursed my lips.

"When she was called for questioning by the management, she told them without a doubt that she's a bisexual," she said in a hushed voice.

"So what if she is? Like what's the big deal?" my brows knitted while shaking my head.

"Oh god, Pri! Don't tell me, you two are?" she widened her eyes then her mouth fell open.

"No, oh god, no! My point is, what's wrong with being a bisexual? Is that a crime?" I shrugged my shoulders, acting cooly.

"South Korea is very strict with those kinds of stuff, Pri. You might be condemned for life! So are you sure you're straight?"

"Yes, absolutely! J and I are just friends and we'll never be more than that. I can assure you that hundred percent," I made an okay sign.

"What if she secretly likes you?" her forehead creased, I pressed my lips together trying to control my annoyance.

"Miyeon, just trust me, okay? J and I will never be more than friends," I faked a smile at her.

"Right, if you say so! And for the record, Jennie can easily get away with anything because she's 'the Jennie Kim' but you Pri, once they'll find you a single violation, you're done before you could even get started! Remember, you're a foreigner here, please be careful and don't get yourself too much involved with her."

"Thanks for the concern Miyeon, but I got this."

I shut the door then stared at the sleeping Jennie for god knows how long. She's a bisexual? And she's brave enough to admit it to the world? She likes women. She kissed me tonight and I am a girl, so does that mean? Oh my god, I don't know what to think anymore. How about the mere fact that I liked the kiss as well, does that makes me a bisexual too?