My Life Thoughts of Madness and Well Boredom

Social Interactions

I've been alone for so long that I'm terrible at interacting with people. For that reason I hate going to crowded places or be in situations where I have to interact with strangers or people that are not me.

Like I dread when I have to ask for direction or when I have to ask someone on the opposite side of a counter for anything. 

That's why when I'm requesting something from somebody I have to have friend next to me. When I'm going to somewhere New or asking the custodian something, I need to have someone I know  near me. It's like their mere presence reassures me or brings me confidence. Like having them near me causes my subconscious to go like, " Don't worry dumbass your friends have your back Rawr!"

Anyway the reason I hate interacting with others is my lack of knowledge about the subject. I don't know how to act during certain situations, be confident? But what if I come out as obnoxious? Act submissive? But what if I come out as spineless? Act casual? But what if I come out as without manners?

Next is how to phrase my words. What if I don't say the correct words and I hurt their feelings and ruin any chance of friendship? But if I don't say anything I may still hurt their feelings and be considered rude. Do I talk a lot until my thoughts are without a doubt understood correctly or do I say few words and hope they understand?

Next is physical contact: what situation is this? The hugging, hand shake, high five or silently nod situation. What if I hug them and come out as perverted? What if I high five them and it was a situation that called out for a hug? What if I hand shake them and my hands are all sweaty due to social anxiety?

Example 1 :

I look toward the girl I like, I'm no longer invisible and I'm consider a friend. She comes toward me and I freeze.

What the Hell should I do? Wave, but what if she doesn't notice it? Call her name and say hello? What if she hears and thinks I'm being rude for calling her name out loud or what if she's thinking and disrupt her train of thoughts? What if I just nod and she doesn't notice it and thinks I'm ignoring her and cuts our friendship?

Example 2:

I'm invited to a friendship gathering that includes her. She sees me and walks towards me, I freeze. How to proceed? Is this a hugging situation? But what if I do and she thinks I'm being to clingy? What if I high five her and she thinks I'm okay with remaining in the friendzone?

^^See my dilemma, I don't fucking know how to efficiently interact with my peers. Talking with others is way out of my comfort zone.

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Alipi out.