My Life Thoughts of Madness and Well Boredom

Chuunibyo syndrome

Eight grade syndrome

For the longest time I hated my worthless existence and I still do but the thing is I learned to accept it. I'm not popular, confident or athletic. I'm clumsy, uncoordinated ,awkward and socially incompetent .

Anyway for those who don't know what eight grade syndrome is. Chuunibyo is a sort of mindset where one tries to escapes reality. It's like when people believe they're the chosen one or that there is a prophecy out there that foretells of their destiny. Anyways I hated (still do) my life so I jumped at any given chance to escape my boring life and created fantasy scenarios.

During middles school my delusional ridden school days were as follow:

I sat there on my desk waiting for the meaningless day to pass by. I sighed as I heard the meaningless chatter of my classmate. I never understand the human species and their primitive forms of interactions.

I looked at them in disgust, I didn't know how could I ever be consider a human. Maybe I was the product of alien intervention which would account for why I'm so clueless to the ways of these lowly earthlings. It made perfect sense, the universe was vast and earth was just a dust ball and it's existence a blink of an eye compare to the universe. I WAS an alien hybrid that was far superior than the inferior beings around me.

I sighed again, when would my real species come for me and rip me way from this mundane existence. I just sat there waiting for the day to go by, a day closer to the day my alien brethren would come for me.

Or

I sat there during P.E the wind blowing against my hair and caressing my face. It was like if the wind was my only friend, a friend that would always support me. I always felt I had a deep connection to the wind, when I'm mad it would howl and thunder, when I'm happy it would dance joyfully around me.

Maybe I have the potential to control the wind element and one day an organization of elemental wielders will find me and we will battle evil elemental gods? That organization better come quickly because I don't want my potential to vanish. I mean I don't even know how to increase my elemental magic.

Or

I noticed it the world, reality was fake. I felt it as it glitches around me. I must be the chosen for I was the only one that noticed. Everyone else just drank the lies of this fake realities. They, others like, would come for me, to free me from this world. Now I keep my knowledge secret waiting to be freed.

^^See how pathetic I was? I was so bored with life I would try to escape to my fantasy world every chance I could.

Anyway this has gotten better so I'm not as delusional as before. I learn to accepted what I am and make the most again. Of course I do still keep the hope that I one day will become ruler of the universe.

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