Sun
Time. Only if there is another way to turn everything back in time, I am willing to submit myself.
The eagerness inside of me, wanting to unlatch a curtain to see the light of the sun is the feeling that I wanted to know everything. With forgotten memories and unfamiliar people it makes me feel at a loss. Lost in the certainty of the feeling of hopelessness.
"Is there any medicine that she could take?" The woman desperately questioned beside me to the Doctor that was in front of us.
Saglit ako napalingon sa kanyang gawi. Wearing her vintage Chanel dress paired with her black Tory Burch flat shoes and her pearl earrings. She looked dashing and sophisticated.
Halata ang pagalala at lungkot sa kanyang mukha pero hindi pa rin nawawala ang pagkaelegante nitong tignan.
She is my mother, that is what she said to me in waking up with no memory and not even recognizing myself. Mahirap paniwalaan ang lahat kung walang kasiguraduhan pero ramdam ko ginagawa niya ang lahat. Ang pagmamahal ng isang ina sa anak na gustong gawin ang lahat para sa ikabubuti ng kanilang anak.
"I already gave everything that could possibly give Madam pero may isang paraan pa na pwede natin subukan. She has a retrograde amnesia at hindi madali bumalik ang kanyang ala-ala agad. I don't want to gave an assurance for it Mrs. Suarez but let's just hope for a miracle."
Pagkatapos kumonsulta sa kilalang doctor agad rin kami umuwi ng bahay. Walang salita ako narinig kay Mamá buong biyahe namin at tanging nakatingin lang ito sa labas ng bintana tila ang lalim ng iniisip. Hindi ko alam ano ang huli nilang pinagusapan ng doctor pero base sa itsura ni Mamá, mukhang hindi ito sangayon sa sinabi nito.
Pagkapasok namin sa loob ng bahay nakaabang si Papá sa sala tila kanina niya pa kami hinihintay. Sinalubong niya ako ng yakap na nakalapit kami ni Mamá sa kanya.
"Mi amore," saad nito na mahigpit niya ako niyakap.
"How was it?" tanong nito tukoy sa pagpunta namin sa hospital. Hindi ako sumagot kaya nilipat niya ang kanyang tingin kay Mamá. Saglit nagkaroon ng katahimikan tila ang mata nila ang nagsasalita.
Mabilis naman ako nilapitan ng isa sa kasambahay namin at niginiya ako sa aking kwarto sa itaas. As much as I wanted to hear what they would say but it feels forbidden for me to know.
I don't know what the reason is. Naguguluhan at wala ako ideya sa lahat ng bagay ukol sa aking sarili. But trying their best as possible for me to recover, that made me assurance for them to be trusted.
It has been a year and things feel like riding a roller coaster. But I'm trying to find a way to turn everything to lift up my dread.
Malalim na buntong hininga ang pinakawalan ko maalis lang kahit papaano ang aking nararamdaman bigat sa aking balikat. Naglakad ako patungo sa bintana kasabay hinawi ang kurtina.
Lumitaw kaagad ang unti unting bumababang araw sa aking harapan. Looking at the sun makes me feel at ease. I always admired it, not just the color but the symbol behind it.
A light in the dark enables us to thrive and grow. That no matter what a day ahead of us, what matters the most is the precious memories it counts for us to be content.
But my life now is just the beginning and there is so much more to be uncovered. Like a sun waiting the day to appear.
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BINABASA MO ANG
SL 1: Keeping the Sun's Embrace
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