The Puzzle Of Jiley

Leaving

Riley's POV

James really made a mistake and I don't know what excuse he'll make to cover this one up. I actually wanted to leave everything. Emily went back to her friends house and I was alone. The one thing I hated. Being alone. I was scared of myself when I was alone. James doesn't even know, but I have a depression disorder. It has never acted up before but this is the worst it's been. Right now. I decided to call my mom. I really needed someone.

"Mommy?" I asked sniffling and looking in the mirror making sure I had dry eyes and I looked okay. I don't know who I was trying to look good for anyway.

"Riley? Baby, I miss you so much. I can't wait to come home!" She said in a burst of excitement and my mouth curved into a half smile hearing her voice.

"I miss you too." I said thinking of her.

"How're you doing, doll?" She said using the nickname she gave me from when I was little. I smiled to myself.

"I've seen better days," I said making sure to hold back my crying.

"Riley? What's wrong sweetie?" She asked, interested and wanting to talk.

"Oh, well you should be having fun right now. Maybe I'll call you later?" I suggested feeling my eyes weld up with tears. But I quickly shut them and waited for a response.

"Babe, I'm not doing anything. I was thinking of calling you. So go ahead. I'm listening. I have all day." She said and the line was silent. I took a deep breathe before responding.

"My depression doesn't act up too much- actually never. It's just..." I stopped and let tears fall from my eyes and steam down my chin.

"Oh no, sweetie." She half whispered. I hate to see her worried or anything.

"It's James," I said and I took deep breathes trying to calm my sobs.

"He did not. He broke you?" She said shakily.

"Mom, don't be worried. I'm fine, it's just-" I thought of words to say.
"I'm more than broken. I feel shattered. I don't want to talk," I finished.

"Would you like me to come home?" She asked softly which calmed me.

"No, I swear. It's not bad. I'm just not myself right now. I need some time,"

"Do you want me to make an appointment for you?" She asked.

"I can control my feelings if I think about them. I need time to think. Maybe I need a break from-" I struggled to say anything because of the tears choking me up and also the helpless sentence I had just said. A break from life itself?

"I don't know. I have to go," I said.

"Baby, everything will be okay. If it gets to it's worst peak, I'm here. You have so much to live for. You have more than plenty people that love you. One stupid human being cannot destroy you. If it does, you're weak. But I know that won't happen because you're the strongest thing I've known." She finished and the sighed.

"Riley. I love you." She said and it sounded like she was crying too.

"I love you. Goodnight," I said realizing it was her bedtime in Italy but not mine.

"Goodnight, I'm just a call away." She finished and hung up.

James POV

Shit James. Find your phone. Call Riley. Did Beth take my phone? Ugh! Where's my mom? I was so upset. Riley probably hates me because a stupid ugh. Beth. I wanted her to suffer. Just because she doesn't have a relationship, she has to ruin other peoples? I didn't know where Riley was so I avoided my car. She wouldn't want to talk anyhow. Maybe she won't ever forgive me.

I found my phone in the couch and immediately went to my messages ignoring any notifications. I had no texts from Riley. My heart dropped. She really is done with me, isn't she? Write something James!

Riley's POV

I was in my bed. I wasn't planning on getting out. I was in the same clothes. The same makeup that was dried from running down my face. I looked like a clown but I didn't bother to look at myself. I didn't want to eat. No point. I had to think but my brain couldn't even think. I wanted to sleep my life away.

I woke up to sun shining in my eyes. I must've fell asleep. I didn't bother checking the time. I lay there, looking at my ceiling for no reason. To waste the minutes that drowned me. My stomach was growling but I ignored it. My face felt hivey probably from the crying and wiping from the tissues. I hovered my hand over my phone. Should I check it? No. There won't be anything. Give it up. He wants Beth and all those times he gave you compliments or told you he really was falling for you- all fake. So when he called you pretty, he meant the complete opposite. When he knew he loved you- no. He hates you. What does he want. Why'd he ruin your life. Oh god. The duet. Why am I still living. Why does the world want me in this dark situation. Give me a sign.

My phone vibrated. Is that the sign? What am I thinking. Riley, go back to sleep and when you wake up, you'll be I'm James's arms.

I picked up my phone without thinking and unlocked it quickly. It popped up to James's messages contact.

You may have already moved on. I know you'll think my apology is an excuse for what I did. You likely think I wanted you for sex or something. Beth harassed me in my house and locked me in. I wanted to run after you. When you left, I was dying inside. Although you might not read this, I'm sorry. It's Beth's fault but I have to blame myself. I'm completely worried and torn because I don't know where the hell you are. I'm too afraid to go out of my house because of Beth. I want you to come back and be in my arms. Riley please. I have a lot of explaining to do. I also have something to tell you. I may have messed this one up and maybe this is the last time. Maybe you won't forgive me again, but I want you to know, I think about you all the time. I want Beth to die Riley. I'm crying. Please. I want you to come back. You're my everything. You're perfect. I'm sorry.

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Sorry for intense chapter lol.
Hope you liked it.