Ellie

Chapter Four

When I get back to the hospital, Grandpa is asleep on the chair. Nana is over by the soda machine buying a water. When I start to walk up to Nana, she slides to the ground and starts to cry. I can’t believe this, I have never seen her cry, ever! I have to get use to this because I have a feeling there will be a lot of crying in the future.

“Nana?”

“Oh, honey. I am so sorry you had to see me like this.” Nana says, sniffling. “Here sit down.” she says, patting the ground.

“When did you get here?”

“Just a couple minutes ago, your Grandpa was freaking out because you weren’t back yet. So I said I would stay up and wait a little longer for you.”

“Oh, well I would’ve gotten you food, if I’d known you were here....um Nana can I ask you a question?   

      “Sure honey” she says between sniffles.

      “Do you think I made the right decision on keeping the baby?”

    Her eyes are wandering around the room like she is in deep thought. She is looking everywhere but at me. Her eyes are tearing up again and I am afraid she is going to break.

“I think you made a decision that made you do all you can to help. You chose to have something left of your parents, which is exactly what I would’ve done.”

 “Really? I just don’t know how I will keep them forever in my life without something to hold on to on the way. Does that make any sense? I don’t even know what I am saying anymore”

    “Well I think you have had enough of all this and you haven’t had any sleep. I brought some blankets and pillows and you can sleep on that red couch over there.”

    “Where are you sleeping?”

    “I will figure something out, don’t worry about me. Just go get some sleep.”

 “Ok Nana, goodnight, love you.”

Thats the last thing I say before I walk over to the red couch, it doesn’t look so comfortable but it will have to do. As I am laying down I remember just seven hours ago, a quick scary flash of me waking up at 4 in the morning and finding my parents...well I don’t really want to think about it right now, I just need to trust that nothing will happen here, I am safe. I am safe.   

I have a weird dream, its about me waking up in the middle of the night and it’s 3:55 almost 4 and its scaring me. I get out of bed and only a few lights are on, the two main hallway lights, I sit on the couch watching people talk on phones with a mad expression on their face, it isn’t pleasant. Then all of a sudden the lights went off then flashed back on and they are gone. I rub my eyes and then open them to see the lights flash off one more time, then once they turn back on again He’s there,Uncle Bryan is right in front of me, I scream and scream and can’t stop screaming until I wake up. It turns out that I was screaming and kicking my feet when I was sleeping because Nana and Grandpa are standing over me with worried looks on their faces.

“Are you alright? You scratched your face! What happened in your dre-” Nana cried

“Don’t ask her that! She will have nightmares every night if you did that!” Grandpa whisper-shouted.

Nana gave me the maybe-we-will-talk-about-this-later face.

“Nana I am fine. How is Ellie? Is she done with her surgery? What time is it?”

Right when I was done talking, their faces saddened and they said that she was still gonna be in that room (but not in surgery) for an hour. We  arent allowed to see her until they know for sure that the surgery worked.

I was so mad, but Nana told me I should calm down and that it was for the best. Nana and I drove to her house to pick up some new clothes. She had driven by my house last night and packed up my clothes, thinking that I would be sleeping  at her house.

After we were done changing, we went to Arby’s and picked up some breakfast for all of us. Then Grandpa called my Nana and told us that we could see Ellie now. I told him that I wanted to be there before he saw her.

When we get to the hospital, a lot more of my family is there. Half of them are crying and the other half were so mad that they looked like they could hurt someone or punch the wall. They all stop what they are doing when they see me. They all come rushing up to me and I feel like I’m going to burst. They don’t even feel like family, they’re more like paparazzi trying to get the news on what happened last night. Really no one has felt like family to me since last night, even Nana, she just felt like a random stranger trying to comfort me. I just want to see Ellie and eat my breakfast sandwich (mamas favorite.)

“Um…excuse me, I think I need to go to the bathroom.”

I feel like I’m gonna throw up! The bathroom smells like a summer breeze because of the air freshener plugged into the wall. It reminds me of the time when I went to Florida with Mom,Dad,Nana and Grandpa. Thats when Grandpa had an allergic reaction to shrimp and we spent the entire second day of vacation in the emergency room. After I wash my hands and face and fix my hair, I am ready to see my new sister, Ellie.