Ellie

Chapter Six

I open my eyes to a bright room with white covers hanging off my bed and white sheets under my body. I try to move but I can’t because I start to feel my skin on my arm and neck tug me back because I am hooked up to tons of wires and beeping things with my heart rate monitor right next to me beeping slowly, then faster when I breath faster purposely just to see what it does. I forcefully lie back down to catch my breath because I couldn’t breathe very well sitting up. I’m laying here staring up at the ceiling until I hear somebody open the door quietly.

     “Hey you’re awake, how are you?”

  Oh no its Nana, I don’t know what to say to her. I freaked out on her a few hours ago.

 “Hi Nana…”

 “Hi moody, I mean... sweetie.”

 “Good save Nana, you needed that and I deserved it.”

 “How are you?”

 “Good, Sort-of-good, but not really, I don’t know anymore, but the real question is, how is Ellie?”

“Oh that poor thing, she is doing good, but she is having a lot of the Symptoms of Acute Leukemia, its not good”

“Which Symptoms are they?”

“She is having a lot of Headaches, a very high fever, and a loss of appetite.”

“Oh, great! I have to get out of here. Let me out now! I need to see her! NOW!”

“Ok moody, calm down, they won’t let you out yet, they-”

“THEY DON’T CONTROL ME!”

“Ha! Yeah, I think we all know that now. The doctors said there is a 75% chance that you will pass out again and I don’t want that to happen, it was so scary.”

“Were you the one who passed out? I don’t think you were, so you don’t know it feels, do you!?”

“I know how it feels to lose somebody and I know how it feels to think you’re going to lose somebody again, Isabelle!”

“Well, I’m sorry Nana, I was the one that passed out and if I’m willing to pass out again then you should let me leave because-”

“I am not going to let you die! The doctors said you had a concussion, so stay in bed!” she looks exhausted and then she sighs and says “goodbye honey.”

Before I could get a chance to say something she leaves. I notice that I forgot to meet Anna at 4 today. Well, i’ll try to find her tomorrow, if they let me out.

Its 5 oclock in the morning and i’ve been laying here for hours listening to babies crying and people walking and running and rushing and yelling and talking and I’m so so bored! So I decide to sneak out of the room and visit Ellie. I should give her that doll I bought her too! I am pushing up my body with all my strength but its so hard. I finally push my feet over the edge of the bed and push my body up. I try to stand up and walk until my head starts to pound but I keep walking, I need to see Ellie, now!

I slowly walk down the hall saying hello to every person I see, did they give me happy pills or something? Because I’m never this happy. I walk and walk and haven’t stopped and its getting annoying until I see my Nana sleeping. My baby bag with the diapers and bottles and who knows what else is in there is sitting next to her. Right on the top is the doll, so I slowly walk over there and then grab it as fast as I can and start toward the nursery. As I am getting closer I see Ellie and then I start running and open the door and casually walk in. I am standing right next to Ellie, she has tubes everywhere on her body to help her breathe, I guess. Then I grab her hand and hold it, so tiny and soft and perfect to me. I can’t explain how happy I am right now to see her. I feel a tear fall down my face and into my mouth, it tastes salty and weird. I just want to take Ellie home, but I can’t. She needs help, and she needs to get better. I slowly set down the doll and her blanket then I kiss her forehead, and I walk out of the room.

    The next morning I wake up to find my Nana sitting in the hospital chair near my hospital bed. I get up and walk down the hall to find Grandpa. I am starving because I didn’t eat anything yesterday. I found Grandpa and I asked him if we could go out to the Waffle house.

After we got back, we gave Nana her food and fed Ellie. They said that she was starting to feel better and that she has a better chance of living since they started attacking the cancer just as it was starting. I hope the doctor was right because I want to go home soon, with Ellie in my hands. If only mama and dad could see Ellie and how beautiful she is.

“Isabelle!”

I turn around and see Anna standing right in front of me!

“Oh my gosh! Anna! I am so sorry I didn’t show up, I passed out and they wouldn't leave. Wait, I thought you didn't go to the hospital anymore.”

“I don’t but I didn’t know what happened to you and I was worried. I talked to your Nana while you were gone. Isabelle I am so sorry about your parents.”
We just stood there in silence for what felt like forever.

“Well, your sister is gorgeous. She has the biggest smile. Also your Nana is one of the funniest people I have ever met.”

“Yeah, well I am so glad that you aren’t mad at me. All of my other friends would have been furious.”

“Do you want to go to the park? It is just down the street. We can even bring Ellie if you want.”

“Sure, that sounds great!”

We are walking down the street, pushing Ellie in a stroller and everything seems happier. Even Ellie seems happier, its probably because none of us have really been able to enjoy the sun or outside. The flowers are all bloomed and colorful. Everything is way more alive since the last time I have seen them, I didn’t notice this till now but it has been a week since my parents died. All the sudden I just feel like curling up in a ball and crying my life away. I don’t want to be here next to Anna or Grandpa and Nana, not even Ellie, I want to be with my parents.

“Are you ok Isabelle? You just got really pale. Do you need to sit down?” Anna says.

Then Anna directs me towards a bench and I don’t really remember a lot after that except for Ellie screaming and me crying for...someone.

“Hello, Can you hear me Isabelle? Do I need to call the ambulance? I don’t know what to do with Ellie, she won’t stop crying. Hello?”

“Huh, Sorry, I am okay. What happened? Hand me Ellie. You don’t need to call the ambulance.”

I grab the bottle from the diaper bag and Ellies doll. I am feeding Ellie while she rubs her finger along the dolls. "Both of you had the same look on your face…it was horrible. It was like you both died at the same time. Then the minute you talked...Ellie stopped crying and kinda...hummed.”
    “Really? I am so sorry. That has never happened before. I was just thinking about sitting with mom and then, well...she wasn’t there. It was like I went from a thought to real life then a dream.”

“You were screaming and crying saying “Mama! Mama! please don’t, not again, then you did that dead face…”

All I could hear was Ellie humming in my arms. When I look at her, all I see is mom. Her humm is just like moms. The scream I heard before I blacked out was the same scream as the night when she was killed. That scream was the one that woke me up.

“Anna, Can we go to my house? I just need to see it really quick.”

“Okay, Isabelle, if you feel like you're going to be sick, just tell me and I will call the ambulance.”

“Okay, deal. Also, you can call me Izzy.”