Ellie

Chapter Eleven

I don’t understand why my parents left when I told Gramps and Nana that she was here, was I crazy? I couldn’t have been crazy because Anna saw them too, I just don’t know why they disappeared right before I could get the chance to tell Nana and Gramps that the funeral doesn’t need to happen anymore but I guess I was wrong.

“What did you want to say sweetie? You said look, so what are we looking at?”

“Did you really not see them?”

“See who sweetie?”

“Yeah who and what I’m confused.” says gramps all stressed and sad at the same time, I am trying to speak but its so hard,

“I-I-It w-a-was...Nothing, nothing at all, I need to use the restroom.”

I said finally after minutes passed by, that was so hard to say.

    I can’t believe that just happened! Anna saw them too, I know she did!! So why did they have to leave just when I showed them Gramps and Nana. If they come back then I just won’t bring them to Gramps and Nanna if thats what I have to do to get them to stay. Thats when I hear the doctor running down the hallway behind me when I am on my way to the bathroom. I know that something bad has happened and I know I can’t handle it right now. Especially after I just sorta lost my parents for the second time. I run to the bathroom and cry my eyes out for what feels like forever. I know that when I walk out that door, I will not like whatever I hear. But I decide that I need to be beside Ellie always and I can’t let her go through the battle alone.

    “Nana, whats wrong? Is Ellie okay?!” I scream.

    “Honey, stop right there, everything is fine. Just calm down okay, because you need to have a level head when I say this.” Nana explains.

    That is when I look at Anna’s face and I know what happened. Ellie will die. I collapse right there, on the floor. I don’t pass out, I don’t feel any pain. Actually I don’t feel anything at all, I am just laying there, staring at the ceiling. I see faces above me and everywhere around me but I can’t comprehend who they are. Where am I again? Who am I? Why are all these people crowding around me? Oh, thats right. I am in a hospital, where my sister will die. The only thing I have left from my parents, and she will be gone. Forever. I am not even sure If I want to live anymore. I don’t want to live, what is the point.

All I hear is just mumbles that don’t make sense to me anymore. Nothing makes sense. Why hasn’t God taken me yet? Why everyone else I care about, and just leave me?

    “Isabelle!! Can you hear me? It is okay, just sit up. Everything is fine.”

That is when I snap back to reality.

    “NO! NOTHING IS FINE!!! NOTHING WILL EVER BE FINE!!! I can’t live like this Nana!!” I sob.

    “Honey, she isn’t gone yet!! They are saving her!! Calm down.”

    “They won’t save her. She will die. I might as well be dead to. I saw it in my dream. Anna and I saw my parents!

Didn’t we Anna? They didn’t want to see you. They left when I brought them to you. They left you just like they left me and Ellie. Now Ellie will leave me. You guys will be too. I hate life. Let go of me! I don’t want to be here anymore!”I scream.

    “Isabelle, I don’t know what your talking about. Everything is fine. Ellie isn’t going to leave you. Your Gramps and I would

never ever leave you.” Nana says calmly.

    “Liar!! You will leave me. She is leaving me right now!! No one wants me!! What did I do?? God please just take me!!”

    “NO, ISABELLE. You quit talking like that!! Calm down now!!”

    “Get off of me!! You don’t love me! No one loves me!! If they did, they wouldn’t leave me!! Leave me alone!!” I am hysterical, I can’t control myself. That is when Anna slaps me. She slapped me!!

    “Why did you do that!! I told you no one loves me!! My own friend just slapped me!!”

    “Thats because you are being ridiculous!! Nothing has happened!! We are all still here!! No one has left you!! Just calm down. I will tell you what happened about your parents later, just stop.”

    Later on, after I calm down and took a long nap, I meet Anna in the cafeteria.

    “Are you gonna tell me what happened or is this a trick?”

    “Just sit down and calm down, please.”

    “Fine, I am sitting. Now tell me what happened.”

    “Well I thought I was the only one but I guess not. Izzy, you are psychic. Same with Ellie, I found out I was when my family died.” What is going on I’m so confused!

I just caught myself holding my head in my hands and making this weird frustrated noise, that was embarrassing because right when I stopped and opened my eyes everybody was looking at me and then Anna kept talking like nothing happened.

“So anyways, I couldn’t control it at first, so you need to learn how to control it because it can get bad, Like you seeing your parents which was horrible because of everything that has happened.”

“Okay, so how do I control it?”

“It takes time, and its life risking so you might want to think about this…”

“I already have. And I want to learn now.”