What's In Your Mind? (Krii7y) ✔️

Chapter 40

(John's pov)

After school I felt almost sick to my stomach with guilt. If I don't tell him, I'm going to loose my mind, so here I go.

I decide to drive to his house so I can tell him in person, but when I call him to tell him I'm dropping by, he doesn't answer, strange. I guess this will just have to be a surprise visit then.

I'm not familiar with Jaren's parents, so I decide not to knock on the front door, instead I climb up to his window, but when I look inside, I see Jaren packing suitcases...

I tap on the window to get his attention, he looks over, startled. Jaren rushes over to me.

"What the fuck are you doing?" He says, annoyed.

I chuckle, "hello to you too," I look behind him once more at the suitcases, "what are you packing for?"

He looks nervous, "Something happened, I'm moving to Colorado."

I sit there, stunned for a few seconds, no no no this isn't how this is supposed to go, It can't end like this.

My thoughts are interrupted, "John?" Jaren says quietly.

"Why are you moving?" I ask, trying to keep my composure steady.

He sighs, "Well when I got home today, I got to meet my mom- my real mom. And she wanted to take me back, and as much as I don't wanna leave my friends here, I gotta get outta this house, and having a few bucks on me at all times could be nice."

I don't know how to react, "Thats great Jaren." My monotone voice seemed to get his attention.

He looked concerned, "You ok?"

I answer almost immediately, "No I'm not ok, there's something- a few things I should really tell you."

Jaren moves aside and let's me climb into his room, he motions for me to sit down and start talking.

The 20 minutes that it took to tell Jaren about everything was a roller coaster, I told him everything, the kidnapping, the reason Mini was hell for so long, and of corse, the party hook up.

After I was done, he was silent, looking at nothing, for 5 whole minutes.

This was the most painful silence I have ever experienced in my life, I was glad to get all of that off my chest, but now I have to face the consequences.

Before I could further inspect Jaren for any possible reaction, I stopped everything. A tear fell from his eye, then another, then 2 more, they just fell without a sound.

Jaren finally looked at me, and I swear time was moving in slow motion, I was waiting for anything.

He finally went off, "You just have some nerve talking to me, talking to me every day, acting like nothing fucking happened, how the fuck you do sleep at night knowing that you kidnapped me. And for what? A stupid fucking bet? 10 dollars?"

He stared at me the entire time, not breaking eye contact. I said nothing in return, by the look in his eyes, I could tell that I would regret it if I said anything.

Jaren continued, "How many times did you talk to me, have a full on conversation with me, look me in the fucking eyes with full knowledge of what you've done to me!? I was terrified John, you absolutely traumatized me, and even worse, you got Mini of all people in on it? That's really fucking low of you."

Now I was crying, I have no reason to, I just can't believe what I've done, I don't know what I was thinking, what type of stupid drugs I might've been on. Would it be unacceptable to say I was hooked on love? Yea probably, that's cheesy, and also a terrible excuse.

Jaren marched to his window and pointed outside.

"Get the fuck out of my sight."

I should've expected it, but it still somehow took me by surprise. I did as he asked tho, I stood by the window, thinking, I might as well apologize, it would do nothing, but it feels wrong if I don't.

I started, "Jaren I'm so sorry, I really hope that you can forgive me, I really mea-"

He slapped me, hard. Before I could react, he spoke, venom laced every syllable.

"Fuck you."

A/N- helloooo, it's been a while, I'm
So sorryyyy, school has been stressing me out, and for a long time, I had no ideas whatsoever for how to continue this story, I got some thoughts now tho, so that's all that matters. I've been much happier lately too, so that helps. I believe the story is very close to done, and I know that I've had some crazy ideas in the past, but I think these next few chapters should tie the knot on this. Anywas, I hope you enjoyed, vote if you feel like it. Cyaaaaaa