What's In Your Mind? (Krii7y) ✔️

Chapter 43

(Jaren's pov)

I'm leaving today.

I already said my goodbyes yesterday, so now, I'm just packing a few last minute things into my suitcase.

I would say that I'm doing that because I have nothing better to do, but in reality, I just can't stop thinking.

John might've done the biggest 360 to me, but I'd never forgive myself if I just left without another word, I want our friendship to end on a good note. I don't want the last interaction between the two of us to be a slap, and that's it.

I don't owe him anything after the shit he pulled, but maybe he should at least get a goodbye. You know what, that's what I'm going to do, I'm going to end up regretting it but it's okay, closure is closure.

I pull out my phone and start to text him.

Me: hey can I meet you somewhere real quick

I wait a few seconds but...nothing. He normally answers within seconds, but he's probably just busy. I'll send him another just in case, I need to stop overthinking though.

Me: I leave today, so I thought you might want to say goodbye or whatever

I put away my phone. I don't wanna seem like I'm desperate, I can't fall back into depending on him, I need to distance myself.

Part of me hopes that I get a response back soon. That part of me can't let go, because the facts are, I loved John. He was there for me...even when I didn't know he was there, but that's besides the point. He was a part of my life for a short time and I can't abandon him.

An few hours pass, and still, nothing. Im guessing he ghosted me, I mean, I wouldn't blame him. I wouldn't wanna come face to face with someone I did horrible things to. I guess that slap in the face really was the last thing he'll remember of me.

I feel myself start to tear up, I can't believe I'm giving him tears, I'm giving this man tears. I'll get over it, we were never a thing, and we never will be.

From now on, he'll just be a memory.

A knock at my door startles me. My mother opens the door, bags in hand.

"Hey hun', you wanna go ahead and get your things packed in the car and head out?" She asks in a calm voice.

I nod my head and start piling on suitcases and bags to carry to the car. She helps me with the heavier items, I'm sure if I tried enough, I could carry them. I don't have the strength to though, my thoughts are going too fast.

I hope in the car, not even bothering to say my goodbyes to my adoptive parents. They know I'm leaving, I don't need to remind them at this point.

My phone buzzes and I look at it immediately, for some reason, expecting a message from John, but it was just the group chat wishing me well. At least I have that to smile about now.

This is the beginning of my fresh start. I need to move on from John, there will be so many others.

My mom hops in the car and turns on some early 2010's music. That music era was always my favorite, she probably doesn't even know that. It's okay tho, the music calms me down and reminds me of better times, I miss it.

"You'll like it where we're heading! I can promise you that. Don't be nervous, I'm here for you now, you can relax." My mom smiles before directing her attention back to the busy traffic.

I smile back at her and start to feel a little bit better. John is fine and I need to forget about him.

He's just a memory, and I don't need to worry about him anymore.

I keep repeating that in my head, if anything it made me think of him more, but at least I'm letting my mind know to knock off all the feelings I have for John.

All of a sudden the car swerves and I'm yanked forward and out of my seat. The last thing I feel is my mother grabbing my hand, and then the presence of her hand being lost.

A/N- AHHHH, HIYA. If my nonexistent planning goes according to plan, the next chapter will be the last (aside from some author notes probably). I can't believe the book had gotten this far. People have lost interest for it over time, but that's okay, I had fun writing it and if I was able to give some people some joy through the process, then I'm happy with that. I'm not gonna get all sappy here though, I'm saving all of that for the next chapter ;-;. But thank you so so so much for reading, all of you lovely she, he's, and they's, I hope you're all having a wonderful day. Vote if you feel like it, bye byeeee!