What's In Your Mind? (Krii7y) ✔️

Chapter 44

(John's pov)

Beeping. Where is the beeping coming from? It's annoying me. Where am I?

I open my eyes. What? A hospital. Oh.

Connecting the dots was pretty easy from there. I don't remember anything though. I thought I walked away from that cliff. Maybe I did, but slipped. Maybe I fell asleep. Who cares at this point, I'm alive.

I look around more to get a better feel for my surroundings.

"Holy shit. Holy shit!"

I turn my head and Swagger is sitting there, he rushes out of the room and shouts some words, but I can't focus on what he's saying. Suddenly more people enter. I know who they all are, but I don't care, I just wanna see Jaren.

Jaren. Right.

It's all coming back now.

"I can't believe you made it." Swagger stares at me teary-eyed.

"How did I get here?" I ask him.

Fitz steps up from the corner of my eye.

"Toby and I drove up to the cliff to have a picnic, but we saw your car, and now you. We got worried and looked all over...and then Toby saw you at the bottom after she peeked her head over the cliff." He comforts me and hands me a ballon, it's red, my favorite color.

Now I feel bad, what asshole ruins a picnic.

I turn back to swagger to crack a joke, but it doesn't seem to be the right time. Everyone still seems so tense, I would've thought they'd look more relieved.

I speak up, "Hey what's with all the tense faces?" I look around the room, everyone now staring at me, "I'm alive, aren't I? That's all that matters. If you all wanna talk to me about my choices, don't, because I don't remember shit." I try to calm them down a bit, no facial changes are seen.

Swagger suddenly lets out a sob. I turn to him, confused.

"What's wrong?" I reach my hand out to him.

He looked down to the floor and let out a sigh, "Jaren got into a car crash yesterday."

"Oh. How bad are his injuries?" I ask him.

He stares at me, "Bad." Is all he says.

I sit there in confusion, "How long will it take for him to recover?"

"He'll never recover, John." Eric's voice is trembling.

"Well why not?"

He looks at everyone else in the room before looking back at me, "Because he's dead, John. Jaren is dead."

I stare at him for a moment. That's why everyone is so tense. Jaren is dead.

"I-I don't understand-"

Swagger interrupts me, "He's gone, there's nothing we could've done, he was dead before he could feel the pain of the semi-truck hitting him." His voice is monotone, I hear sniffles around the room.

A doctor walks in, "I'm sorry, but I think John should have some time alone to process this information, please come again tomorrow." The doctor quickly says before finding his way out.

Swagger pats my shoulder before gloomily walking out of the room, the rest follow him.

I can't believe it. He's dead. The love of my life, I didn't even get to say goodbye. Words can't even begin to describe how sorry I am for everything I did. Jaren died hating me, rightfully, of course.

Jesus, what has my life become. I miss him, I miss him so goddamn much, and I didn't even know he was dead until a few minutes ago.

What a train wreck.

I pull out all of the iv bags I'm hooked up to and stand up, walking towards the window. It's an icky day, raining, the sky is grey, pretty fitting.

By the looks of it, I'm up pretty high in the building.

I don't know what would be there for me after death, but whatever it is, I hope it's Jaren, I need to see him, I want nothing more, I won't have to wait long though, I'll be right there with him soon.

I open the window, the cold breeze makes me shiver, but it's alright, maybe it'll be warm where I'm going.

A/N- hi. Yup. That's the end. I can't believe it. Writing this book has been funnn, it lasted longer than I thought it would, but that's cus of procrastination so ha. If you're someone who has been reading this since the beginning, thanks a lot, you're greattt. And thank you to everyone else, of course. There will be one last thing after this, it'll just be a final author's note that will clarify a few things and maybe go in depth for some stuff, also might discuss some future story ideas If I end up doing another book, which could be fun ig, but I'll save all that for next chapter. I hope all of you lovely people enjoyed this chapter, I hope you all have a good day, and comment, vote, whatever, if you feel like it. But until next time, cyaaaa!