What's In Your Mind? (Krii7y) ✔️

Chapter 3

(Jaren's pov)

I start walking towards the entrance to the school and as I walk in, I notice a guy I've never seen before. He has long, bleached hair, painted nails and a stupid looking Hawaiian button up. He seems to be taking with Craig, Tyler's boyfriend. 'He's kinda cute' I think, but I immidietly shake the idea out of my head and start walking to my locker.

I open my locker and look at myself from in the tiny mirror I have. I look at my empty, brown eyes. I get everything I need for first period and start walking, keeping my head down.
I look at my watch, it reads 7:21. I'm a little early. I walk in, expecting there to be nobody in there, but I was wrong. The same boy from earlier was sitting at the desk next to mine. Our eyes meet and he smiles. I think I blushed a little, but I don't think he nodiced.

I walk over to my seat and sit, waiting for more people to rush in.

"Hello," I hear the boy next to me say, "my name is John, what's yours?"

I'm almost suprised he even talked to me in such a kind way, almost everyone either ignores me or insults me for no damb (you expect me to spell it damn?) reason. I almost forget to answer but then say, "Jaren."

"That's a cool name!" He says enthusiastically with a smile. I swear I almost smiled myself but I stopped myself when the bell rung and students started pouring into the classroom.

"Hey smit!" I hear my Swagger say as he walks into the room.

"Hey." I say in a quiet voice.

He then turns his attention to John, who happens to be in his seat. "I don't mean to be rude, but you're in my seat dude." (Ha, that rhymes)

"oh," John says with an apologize tone, "Sorry about that, I didn't know." He then got up,and let Swagger sit in his designated spot.

'He's so kind.' I thought to myself.

Swagger says thank you but is then interupted by the teacher walking in and hushing everyone down. Ima be blunt, she's a real bitch.

"Good morning class," she greets, "I hope you all enjoyed your weekend." Mumbles of yes and yea spread the room "It seems we have a new student today" She says as she smiles at John. "Introduce yourself please."

John then walked to the front of the classroom. "Hello, I name is John, and I've moved here from Texas." Everyone gave a warm welcome to him before the teacher directed him to his new seat.

The rest of class was boring, as usual. I turned around to where John was sitting and glanced at him for a second, then our eyes met. 'Shit, I've been caught.' I think as I immidietly turn back around.

Class then ends a few minutes later and as I walked out of the room, Swagger pulls me over and whispers, "Don't think I din't see you looking at the new kid. I think you've got a crush"

I sigh, "Just because I looked at someone doesn't mean I want to fuck them and grow old with them."

Swagger chuckled, "I said you liked him, not you you wanted to fuck him, geez smit where'd that come from?"

I feel myself blush but quickly turn away before Swagger sees. "I don't like him Eric," I said, giving him a stern look, "besides, even if I did, I would make him broken...just like me." I feel myself start to cry.

"Woah Jaren, calm down its ok." Swagger says with a comforting look, "you're not broken, just slightly damaged."

"Slightly damaged?!" I I said a little too loudly. I saw all the eyes on me and started panicking 'everyone is looking at me' I think to myself. I then push through the crowd and run to the bathroom. I start to feel the tears well up in my eyes.

I enter the stall in the bathroom farthest from the door and lock myself in there while I start sobbing uncontrollably.

'They think you're crazy'

No

'They think you're weak'

No

'They think you're ugly and useless'

NO

"I can't do deal with this right now." I whisper to

I roll my sleeve up, inspecting all my previois scars to see where the most suitable place for more can be uintil I hear the bathroom door open.

"Jaren?"

'Shit,' i think to myself, 'it's John'.

"Jaren I know you're in here, I saw you run in." He says softly.

I stay silent, knowing that if I start talking, the tear-gates will open up again.

"Jaren, please talk to me, I need to know you're ok." John says, concern lacing his voice.

I build up all the courage i have in my body right now and open my stall door to face him.

"Do I look ok?" I say, silent tears now falling down my cheek.

John then runs up and hugs me, something nobody's done to me in years.

I start sobbing again at the feeling of such comfort.

"Shhh," John says, "let it all out."

I sniffle, "That's a really stupid thing to say."

He chuckles, "Well, it's the best I can think of right now."

We sit on the ground for a few minutes, me in his lap being cuddled intil I could calm down.

"Hey Jaren," He cleared his throat, "What happened back there for you to run off like that?"

I took a deep breath in, "My friend said something and I guess it kinda angered me and I yelled at him, causing a lot of peope to look at me" I feel a tear run down my cheek ad I continued, "Seeing everyone look at me made me panic, so I ran."

He rubbed circles into my back, trying to relax me. "Whay did he say that angered you?" John asked.

I though for a moment about what i would say and then I eventually said, "I don't think I want to tell you that."

John nodded and then looked at his watch. "Oh shit, next period starts in 3 minutes, we should probobly get going." He exclaimed as I got up off of him and rushed toward the bathroom door.

"Well," I said with a small smile, "I'll see you later then."

He then turned to me and winked before waving and rushing to find his next class.

I then frowned, 'Why did he help me?'

A/N- I've written 3 chapters in one day (and I'll probobly write another tonight) WHOO I'm on a roll! I can't wait to have hand cramps all day tomarrow. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed! I know this is my story and all but for anyone who is reading right now, I want to hear some ideas for what you think will happen in the future, cus I don't! I wing everything I do even though I probobly shouldn't. Quick question btw, when I finish this book, what kind of book should I do next???
Welp enough of that, cya later!