He's Kind Of Heartless (bxb) (Spg)

Hansel's POV

I was walking at the hallway when I first saw Chris. His face is kinda familiar. He reminds me of someone who's very close to my heart. His black hair, his chinky eyes and his feminine lips' reminds me of someone I used to love.

I know that I'm a little bit ruthless to students who don't deserve my mercy. They think they can graduate college without giving their best effort. And I hate such student, pero may isa talaga ang nakapagbibigay sakin ng interest. Kaso sa tingin ko, wala siyang interest sa kapwa niya lalaki. But fate is very generous to me these days. Call me opportunista and I am. I want to shove my dick to his feminine mouth so badly and when I got the opportunity I haven't made it scape. I grab it immediately before it turns into stone

Hindi pa nga siguro ako nakamove-on sa kanya dahil sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ni Chris palagi kong nakikita siya kay Chris.
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"Stay away from him" Sabi ko kay Conor ng matapos siyang nakipaglandian kay Chris noong biyernes ng hapon.

"Do you like him because he and your ex has the same features? Do you see Gab in Chris?" I admit that that's the first reason why I like Chris but I know there is something else, I couldn't just pin point it.

"It doesn't matter, just do what I told you" I nurse the glass full of wine. Im not the type of person who begs but "Just please stay away from him or I will be force to make a move and you don't want that to happen" ngumisi siya na para bang hindi siya naaalarma sa threat ko.

"Like what?" He asked confidently like he is certain that I have no tricks on my sleeve

"Like Ill pull my shares and you will be force to marriage Rosalinda" When I told him he stopped from what he was doing. He tense after hearing my threats. I don't want to do that to him but if he insist his hardiness I have no choice but to use that card

"Come on man! Can't you put the good fight? Let's play the game fair and square" He said like he's been cheated in a game

Sa totoo lang hindi ko alam kong bakit ko ito ginagawa, I like him, yes, but I don't like him that much. May hawig lang talaga siya kay Gab na sa tingin ko ay para lang siya sa akin. Or that's what I want to think.

"What if Gab comes back?" He pour the bottle of wine to his empty glass and start sipping it. "Are you going to dump Chris?" I haven't thought of that. Hindi ko naman kasi naisipan na bumalik pa siya. I like him but he's just too coward. To coward.

I still like him though but his not here anymore so I have to move on.

"I don't know, I don't want to think about it for now. He's not here and it's enough reason to start moving on" tumingin ako sa labas, nandito kami sa mansion nila, sa balkonahi nila. Kung hindi lang siguro kami magpinsan ay magiging romantic ang datinangan nang lugar na ito.

The red clothe that's covering the round table is kinda romantic and the gentle cold breeze was kinda romantic too but we're here talking about the boy we are both interested.

"From the moment I land my eyes on him I already realize that I like him, pero sige dahil mas matanda ka sa akin ay gagawin ko ang gusto mo. I will not chase him anymore but you should allow to at least become his friend" he seems angry at me tumayo siya mula sa kanyang kinauopoan at umalis mula sa balkonahi.

I couldn't say thank you. I don't want to say thank you. He may loathe me for doing it to him and I will understand him. I've been in his shoes. Kapag bata kapa at walang pera ay hindi mo maipaglalaban ang iyong gusto. I know that i kinda manipulated him. Hindi niya maipaglalaban si Chris ngayon dahil bata pa siya at wala siyang magagawa kapag nalaman ni Tito ang sekrito niya. Baka ipakasal lang siya ng maaga kay Rosalinda pag nagkataon. Ive been in his shoes so I know what he feels now.

Suminghap ako ng hangin, the cold breeze is telling me that Christmas is coming.

I sighed and decided to leave the balcony, deciding to join the others.

Am I selfish? Maybe yes?

Am I using him? I don't know. Does it matter if I only using him? We are both benefited from it, he will get money and I will get satisfaction. Its not my fault if he'll fall for me. I admit I like to twist his gender Identity, I like straight boys turn into gays afterall. I like him beg for my cock. I want him to become a cock slut. Wanting my cock every inch of it.

"When are you going home?" Tanong ng kapatid kong babae na si Liza. She's been invited at Tito's birthday na sa bahay lang ini-celebrate dahil sawa na daw ito sa maraming tao. Gusto niyang pamilya lang niya ang kasama.

"After the party" sagot ko sa kanya, kahit na alam ko ang ibig niyang sabihin

"What I mean is to our father's house" Tinignan ko sa mata ang kapatid ko "I will not go home to his house anymore, I can stand on my own. I don't need him" I dislike my dad for ages now. Matagal na akong hindi umuwi ng bahay niya, kasi noong nasa bahay pa niya ako his manipulating me to become a person who's not me “a straight man”. Marami siyang sinabi na kapag hindi ako magbago ay Hindi ko makukuha ang mana ko, O itatakwil niya ako bilang anak.

"He needs to see you, he is ill"

"How ill?"

"Are you going to visit him when he's very ill? When he can't stand and always laying in his bed?" She almost raise her voice but manage to control.

"I'll try to visit him" I said so she'll stop. I don't want to visit him.

After weekends, I can finally see him for a long time. I can stare at him kahit hindi man diritsu ang tingin kahit sa peripheral vision nalang.

Ang kaninang magulo na classroom ay biglang tumahimik pagpasok ko. Takot lang sila sa'kin

Dumiritsu agad ang tingin ko kay Chris. He's innocence are inviting me to stain them. Agad kumulo ang dugo ko ng maalala ang araw ng biyernes kung kailan siya at ang pinsan ko ay nagkamabutihan. I can't blame Conor though for having a thing for Chris but he's mine to mess.

Chris is straight--yeah sure! But I know how to bend him. I bend Gab before and I'm certain that I can bend Chris too. Bending straight is my quirk afterall.

Enough with Gab! I shouldn't mention him too often.

Sa Isang linggo kong kasama si Chris sa pagpapalabas ng libido ay hindi ko na alam kung ano talaga ang gusto ko. I mean yeah he's attractive but is he worth it? Hindi ba siya pareho lang sa mga karelasyon ko na aalis nalang bigla?

Nah! Fucking his mouth is much more enjoyable than having a relationship with him.

I will just fuck him until eventually I'll stop liking him.

To be continued...

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Note: Para naman may background tayo kay Hansel at Conor kahit kunti ay ito ang naisipan kong iupdate. Sorry kung maikli. Babawi ako sa susunod. Sana hindi kayo na confuse sa POV ni Hansel