He's Kind Of Heartless (bxb) (Spg)

Chapter 21: The Push and Pull

Chris

Matapos ang pangyayaring iyon ay naging peki ang lahat. Ang ngiti, ang tawa, at ang kanilang pakikitungo.

The atmosphere in the dinning room is very toxic. Oo nga at wala kang maririnig na mga insults pero alam ko naman na gusto na nilang itapon sa akin ang mga insulto nila kanina pa kung wala lang dito si sir Hans. 

May time pangang gusto ni Sir Alfonso ang salad. Dahil malapit lang ako sa kanya ay ako na ang nag-abot pero nung na-abot na ay bigla nalang siyang umayaw. "I changed my mind" He said, he almost sound being grossed of what I did but he still manage to fake a smile after saying it.

"You should at least eat some, it's good for an old person like you" si sir hans. Kinuha niya sa akin ang bowl ng salad  at binigay sa papa niya.

Kinuha naman  ito ng matanda at nagsandok ng di karamihan.

Tumingin ang matanda sa plato ni sir hans na puno ng manok. Biglang nagalit ang mukha niya pero bumalik naman ito sa pocker face.

I forgot something, namana ni Sir Hans ang kanyang attitude sa kanyang papa. Soft spoken kasi magsalita kahit galit na at nangiisulto.

"You should change your favorite meat. That's probably the reason why your illness worsen!" Sabi ng matanda na nagpa-tense up sa aura ng Professor.

May sakit si sir?

"How's the meat affecting my sexuality? And when did homosexuality become an illness?"

"Since you become one."

Buti nalang talaga hindi pwede ang mga bata dito kasi kahit sa lapag-kainan ay nagsasagotan sila though sobrang mahinahon ang kanilang boses— parang hindi nagaaway, pero sobra naman nitong toxic.

"Look, I'm just worried of you Hansel that your illnes will worsen. For now you're doing the fucking, later after eating that much of chicken, you're the one who's being fucked"

"Don't be so ridiculous, that study is a fraud don't believe it to much. And I assure you. Me, being the bottom will not going to happen" uminit ang mukha ko, dahil alam kung may mga matang tumitingin sakin.

Hindi na sumagot pa ang matanda. Kinain ko nalang ng tahimik ang pagkain sa plato ko, pero hindi ko kinain ang manok. Natatakot na baka maging bakla din ako.

Walang namang masama maniwala sa matanda diba? It's better to be safe than sorry. Ayaw kumain ng manok at tuluyang maging bakla.

I somehow manage to survive after the dinner.

"They're always like that. Throwing insults to each other" Sabi ni liza sa akin.

Kinausap ako ni liza habang si hansel naman at ang kanyang papa ay may paguusapan pa daw.

"Is your brother always like that—I mean does he always act like a cold hearted person and a control freak? Asshole?" Hindi ko na dinahdag ang asshole. Mahirap na, nandito ako sa bahay niya plus kapatid pa niya ang kausap ko.

"No he isn't! He become the person you're describing because of Father. He mimic the attitude of our father—thats his way to defend himself. In other words, it's his defend mechanism"

"They look the same and act the same. If your dad wears black hair I might think of them as twin brother" commento ko na sinanayonan naman ni Liza.

Mabait naman pala si Liza. Mukha lang mataray because of her fashion style, and her crooked eyebrows.

"True enough! Hansel's once idol is dad. They were very close to each other until one day dad discovered my brother's  sexuality. But sure dad still cares for hansel. Believe it or not but dad knows hows hansel doing. He always check on him. And the biggest proof that dad still care and love (I want to call it love) because dad does not disown Hansel. Dad make threats but it none of them are serious" said liza.