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Part 14: almost ready!

2 more days was the big school dance and I honestly was so scared. What was I going to wear? How should I act? What if I get humiliated in front of everyone! I can't let myself get like this again! I got to stay strong, plus Levi is going to be by my side but maybe that's the bad thing.
I was really bummed that Sage was turning down all these poor guys to go to the dance, I guess the only one she will except is Levi. For me on the other hand, no guys were even acknowledging me, they probably wouldn't even think to ask me. Levi still hasn't officially asked me, he told me he would but he hasn't really done it yet, I wonder why, I wonder what's going on in his head?
Levi and I seem to be getting closer but farther away at the same time. He seems distant towards me. He's not as outspoken and confident as he usually is and it worries me, I look up at him and all I see is I dunno...resentment or regret? Even when he's smiling it's not the same smile I remembered. I remember his smile being bright and full of wonder and life but his smile now seems a little off and I hate it. He doesn't look at me the way he used to and every time we're together he doesn't talk as much.
We were walking to school when I asked him, "Hey why did you and Sage leave/forget about Jax and I?"
He suddenly froze and slowly turned around towards me, "Well Sage and I were getting kinda tired so we decided to head home." Then he turned back around and started walking faster.
"Hey what is up with you?" I barely could keep up with him.
"Um what do you mean?" He had a stern tone to his voice.
"You've just been acting off lately, if there is something wrong you can"— I stopped, not this again.
He turned back around and stood still, "and? Have anymore to say?"
"No I don't." I walked past him as fast as I could, I couldn't let this happen again, I'm not going to let someone else walk away from me like this, this time I was going to be the first to walk away.
I could hear Levi in the distance, "come on Ive! What's wrong?" But I didn't stop I had put up with enough of this, he can either apologize and ask me to the dance or just forget about it, I'm going to the dance either way. The cold wind was calm, making the leaves barely rustle as they daintily swirled around my feet. The whole day Levi had tried to talk to me but he finally gave up when he saw I needed some time. I wasn't going to completely abandon him like Sage did me, I wasn't going to be that kind of person, I was just going to keep my distance until he decided to man up. I wasn't even talking to Jax really (this is how upset I was). No one had asked me to the dance yet which isn't surprising and I haven't felt this way in it seems like forever.
Jax and I were walking home when he kept looking at me, "What?" I looked up at him, i looked like I was a cat ready to pounce.
"Nothing your honor!" He put his hands up and grinned.
"Stop it Jax, really what is it?" I giggled while smiling at the ground.
"Well that's the first time I've heard you laugh In a couple of days, what's the matter?"
"If Levi wants to ask me to the dance, he needs to hurry up, the dance is tomorrow, and what's his deal anyway?"
I stopped and turned towards Jax who was looking concerned. "We had a fight the other day because he's been acting strange ever since the day we went bike-riding! I'm the only one who he's been acting this way to."
Jax looked down at the ground and then looked back at me, swinging his foot back and forth, "do I need to punch someone in the face?"
I smiled, "no it's fine, I'm going to the dance either way, have you asked Sage yet?"
"Yeah..."
"And what'd she say?!"
"She said yes."
"Oh good for you Jax! Way to go!" Why was I feeling even sadder? I should be happy for Jax but for some reason something was holding me back.
"It took a lot of convincing though!" He nudged me, "come on let's go!"
When Jax dropped me off I noticed he was looking at me and waited till I went inside, I looked out the window after and I saw him standing outside my house with a bashful smile. It made me smile too. He didn't smile like that much but when he did it suddenly felt like a weight off my shoulders, it made me happy that he was happy.
I stayed up almost all night trying to pick out a dress to wear, I decided to pick out a simple but elegant one, the dress was kind of a minty/turquoisey green and it had a few studs, it flowed down to my feet and it made me feel magical every time I put it on. When I took it back off I heard a rock hit my window, it was Levi holding up a big sign that said, I'm sorry will you go to the dance with me? At first I thought "give me a break" but then I knew that he made the effort so of course I said yes.
He climbed up to my room looking happy as ever, "I'm sorry Ivory! Please forgive me, it's just I felt bad for leaving you behind and I thought you and Jax had done something!"
"Ew no! Never! And yes I forgive you! Thank you! Me and Jax would never do whatever you had in mind ha! He likes Sage! He asked her to the dance today and she said yes!" I stuffed the dress in my closet so he couldn't see it.
"Oh really? He likes Sage?" Levi plopped on my bed.
"Yeah, why are you so surprised?"
"I dunno, it's nothing." He picked up a magazine I was reading and started looking at it, "ya know all these dresses would look good on you!"
"Oh stop give that back!" I jerked it from his hand and threw it in the trash.
I sat on my bed beside him, he carefully laid his hand on my thigh, and started to move it upwards, "Um Levi what are you doing?"
"I'm sorry! Is it making you uncomfortable?!" He stopped and looked up at me with his puppy dog eyes.
"Yeah kinda! You should probably leave now, ya know before my parents come up here and find out!" I laughed nervously.
"Oh ok well can I at least kiss you?" Before I could really answer he kissed me on the lips for a good while and started putting his hands on my waist and thigh again.
I stopped it before it could get any further, "Um Levi I'm sorry but you should um leave now because like I said my parents might come up here anytime and"—
"Ok I'm leaving! Um I'm really sorry I know that was weird!"
"No you're fine! Now hurry!" No it wasn't fine, I was lying about the parents thing, they rarely come up to my room, I just knew where this was going and I wasn't ready. What he did kind of ruined the mood for me, was this just a boody call or did he actually really want to apologize? He really thought since he apologized he was going to get that big of a reward of him being the one I lose my virginity to? No way! He already got his reward which is me accepting his apology and taking me to the dance. That should be good enough!
Something had changed about Levi and I still don't know what! Wouldn't he trust me, is he trying to make me feel guilty for hanging out with Jax? I don't want him to be jealous (well at least a little) but that's not the point! He should trust me when I say me and Jax didn't do anything and never will.
Levi, I really love you,I do, but somethings up with you and I want to know what it is.