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☁Chapter 1☁

I looked around the class from the back of the room. From my black Aéropostale my wavy dark brown hair, was the only thing you could see from afar, since the hood I always kept on my head created a sheltered shadow for my face, therefore I wouldnt really be noticed. I only wanted him to see me. "Kahatra! Pay attention! Matter fact!", my annoying math teacher Mr. Spades said while getting his pointer and pointing it to the board furiously, smacking on an equation written with his black dry erase marker. "I am sick and tired of you ungrateful children not paying attention! Well since you Miss Vondess, want to daydream looking around instead of paying attention to my lessons." He said with a frown on his face.

I turned my attention away from him and tapped on my desk with my black painted nails. "Right", Mr. Spades cleared his throat. 

I tapped louder.

 He looked around in anger and then put his attention back to the board, trying his best to ignore me.

I tapped a little louder..

"So we are all going to lunch in about ten mi-", I tapped my foot on the floor in the same sync as my nails on the desk and he sharply turned towards me. "KAHATRA! Stop your tapping before I file a complaint to the principal about your disturbing behavior along with your many other attitudes in the past I haven't notified her about sincerely because I thought you would change it up. " he said. I rolled my eyes.

After the lesson it was already time for lunch. "Alright, you guys! Dont forget your project is due in three days!"

  What?

As soon as I was about to sync in with the rest of everyone rushing out the door, Mr spades called my name. "Kahatra, I would like for you to stay for a moment." He said.

I turned slowly and sat in front of his desk. "Yes?" I said. "You've been quite distracted, disturbing, and disrespectful lately. If you have anything going on that is affecting you, you can go to the counselor you know." He said, while putting his gaze on my arms that were showing my ashy, bruised cuts. He nodded and looked in my eyes. 

Damn.

I pulled my lips to curve into the most convincing smile I could muster, "These are just from my book bag" I forced a laugh, "this happens all the time. My zippers always scratch me that I don't even notice from time to time." I nodded to reassure him and he bought it. He sighed and pointed towards the door. "Alright, well if you don't change up your act soon, ill be forced to call your parents."

I have no parents. Parents are supposed to love and care for you, mine beat me if I breathe the wrong way.

I rushed out the room and past the halls of people who were supposed to be in the lunchroom, but instead making out. Pathetic.  As soon as I got in the cafeteria all eyes set on me. I dont understand.. Usually nobody pays really much attention to me. Something is wrong. 

"So! Did you get in trouble?"

Ugh. Maria. The one who sleeps with everyone in sight.

"I bet she did" she muttered to her table laughing.

"No. She never does. That's my point Chrissy!"

"Oh My God!", she shrieked, "She probably sleeps with him so he'd keep quiet. What a slut," She laughed.

 I decided not to cause much of a scene and went to the lunch lady, ignoring Maria and her group of plastics. "Oh Ju Getting Ze School Lunch eh right?" Rosetta, said. Rosetta is italian, still learning English but i'd say her accent is beautiful. I nodded my head confusingly, since she knows I always get it. "Ju Lucky! " She said smiling. She leaned closer to me. "Ze girl over zer", she pointed towards Maria, "She wanted to save some for ze broder of ers. Litzen, I am not telling ju zis for ju to go back and eh make ze laugh out of er. Er broder put into ze mental facility for zomting but she saves ze food fom ze lunch and drives it to him. She cant  afford to go out n buy ze lunch. Ze family es..... I guess.. struggling right now, and I know ju understand so ju keep it in consideration in case ju want to open up to er. "

I gave Rosetta an assuring smile to let her know I wont make fun of Maria because of this information. "I know ju guys not on ze urm best terms but ju try to be nice. I know ju guys would make ze best of friends." 

Rosetta smiled and I gave a look of disapproval. We both laughed and I walked to an empty spot where nobody was and started eating. 

"She probably did." Maria said unnecessarily out loud.

"Exactly! Her parents never get called."

Ughh. I wish they would just-

"Can you guys just fuck off, yeah?"

Who's he talking to?

I looked up from my tray and saw Maria's boyfriend trying to dart his attention elsewhere. I started staring at him then he quickly turned around. I hesitantly looked at the wall and smiled at my stupidity for letting him catch me.

"Marcuez," he held his hand out. "Kahatra.. Thanks," he smiled. I glanced at Maria and saw she was shooting daggers towards me with her eyes. "I advise you get back to your girlfriend.. She seems to be upset you're talking to another girl, let alone me," I gave a comforting smile and watched him smile back. He turned to Maria, and I went back to my lunch.

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