Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fanfic)

Chapter 26

Can we real quick just appreciate this edit. Full credit to those who made it because oh my lordy I am in LOVE
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"Can we take a break please?" I ask while squeezing my eyes shut and scrunching my face

I wince for the hundredth time as Shuri seems to connect another severed line in my head but quickly look to the hologram screen that flashes a memory in the middle of the room in front of us. The way Shuri has everything set up is: she's behind me with all her high tech mind probing tools and screens, I have what I can only describe to be as a special sweatband around my head allowing Shuri entry, and as she worked her magic every memory she'd recover would flash in front of us. This would actually help me uncover deeper, more detailed memories for Shuri to fix. But every time she'd zap a line back into place, I'd get a twinge of pain in the back of my head. Like someone was jabbing me with a freshly sharpened pencil

Shuri sighs at my request but decides not to fight me since this is the eighth time I've asked in the gods know how many hours she's been here. "Alright alright, 10 minutes. You're doing excellent. We should have you fully back to your normal self by the end of the day!" She cheers more to herself but gives me a pleased smile

I let out a sigh in relief as I finally get a moments peace, laying back in the semi comfortable infirmary bed. Shuri exits the room after asking if I wanted a snack to which I happily responded with 'chocolate pudding'

I can't believe everything Hydra wiped from me... Given Shuri says I'm remembering most of these things on my own but still. They took almost all my happy memories. Like when I learned to ride a bike without training wheels, getting my first A in school, passing my drivers test and getting a license, on top of hundreds more. They erased everything good in me to make me a broken, hallow shell of a person so they could mold me into what they wanted. I had to focus on my breathing so I didn't become physically aggressive and damage something in the room while she worked away everything

A gentle knock brings me back to reality and I groan. "Has it been ten minutes already?" I shift in my bed as the door opens revealing a tall dark figure. To my pleasant surprise it was Bucky holding my cup of chocolate pudding and a spoon

"Nice headgear," he jokes as he drinks in the sight of me, smiling down at my form as he approaches my bed. I roll my eyes and grab the pudding cup from him, taking note that he looks more rested than the last time I saw him

"Thanks, I think the color really brings out my eyes." I tease, knowing fully well that I look ridiculous

Bucky lets out a low chuckle as he sinks into the seat next to me and I peel open the pudding, delving my spoon into it and then my mouth. I almost moan aloud at the subsense, relishing in the taste. It feels like years since I've last had this and I'm going to fully enjoy it. I turn to Bucky as he opens his mouth to make a comment, probably on the sound I made just now, but suddenly the machine hooked up to me flashes a memory in front of us

The image was beyond blurry, like looking into a deep barrel of water, but it looked like moving flesh. A brief image of chocolate hair, at least I'm assuming it to be hair, in fact I'm hoping it's hair and not anything else, glides by followed by pink lips. Then something thick and silver peaks at the edge of the screen but I can't tell what it was before it moves across one of the flesh looking objects, quickly followed up by a faint moan

My moan

I freeze and look at the now stilled image in front of us before it clicks off. Bucky turned his head to look away, reaching his bionic arm up and either embarrassingly or innocently scratches the back of his neck. I glance at him, looking at his metal arm, the confusion in me both bubbles and simmers as I notice the smallest almost unnoticeable smirk on his lips. His cheeks tinted the faintest of pink