Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fanfic)

Chapter 4

Updated 3/30/21
Can you guys guess who I'm gonna credit again? That's right. It's heyitslettym

"What the hell kid? I specifically said HOURLY check ins. Not 'check in twice then nothing for the rest of the night'!" Tony barks from the phone. Part of me loved the fatherly side to Tony, being as I didn't really have a father figure growing up but a lot of the time it's rather annoying just how protective he is of me

I can't imagine what it's like for Peter nor do I want to

I sigh, crossing one arm across my chest while the other holds the phone to my ear, thinking of what to tell him. I can't exactly blurt out that Bucky snatched my phone and then my lips. Neither of us would see the light of day again

"I'm sorry Tony. I was going to update you but," I pause, glancing at Bucky who's staring at me with those same hungry eyes from the seat I left him in

I definitely can't throw him under the bus right now, even though I've a handful of snarky remarks to make and call him out for a few things right now. I bite the inside of my lip before continuing

"I figured having my phone out would be a distraction. You know better than anyone that things can change in the blink of an eye. I was focusing on the mission." That last part was a half truth. I was focused on Bucky and the mission. "PLUS the light emitting from the screen could have drawn in any unwanted attention if there was immediate danger around. So I decided it'd be best for everyone to keep my phone tucked away." I state matter of factly

Tony pauses for a moment on his end of the phone before I hear him snap his fingers together signifying he's having an 'ah-ha' moment

"Fine, I'll give you that. But what about the past 2 hours? You've been on the jet and didn't think once to call me?" Tony's voice is calming down the more we talk and my words sink in

He knows what I said is a good reason

I shrug nonchalantly, realizing that only Bucky can see me right now. "I fell asleep. Didn't get to catch a nap after training yesterday and haven't gotten a wink of sleep in," I pause to check the clock on my phone, "25 hours now. Sorry boss." I huff through the phone

Once again there's a moment of silence between us. Tony collecting his over imagination

"I just.. worry about ya kid. You know that." Tony sighs, realizing how much he's over reacting. I nod, not that he can see

"I know you do but you gotta put some faith and trust into me. Plus, I was with Barnes. You know I'm safe in his hands." I glance back at Bucky who's now leaning forward in his seat, his elbows on his knees

He had a devilish smirk on his face as he darts his tongue out, wetting his lips before looking from my face to the floor and back again. My body ignites with raw desire for the super soldier

Gods above do I wish Tony hadn't kept calling and interrupted us

"I know I know..." Tony sighs again, bring my attention back to the phone call. "Just make sure to let me know when you make it back to base at least, alright?" He asks. I nod once more

"Will do boss. Now go enjoy your honeymoon." I breathe out a chuckle before ending the call

I comb a hand through my hair before tucking my phone in the pocket of my pants. Bucky clears his throat, capturing my attention and making me turn in his direction. A smug grin crinkling the corners of his eyes as he looked up at me and reached forward, hooking a hand around my thigh and pulling me to him

"Care to pick up where we left off?" He asks, looking to my lips with hooded lids

"You know a measly kiss doesn't answer the dozens of questions I still want answers for, right?" I cross my arms over my chest