Gangster love (Bts Taehyung Fanfict)

Chapter 17

Your eyes flashed open as those words left his mouth, your heart pulled on your veins sending the blood to your cheeks painting them red, until your brain wiped your happiness away with its dull-witted thoughts. Taehyung realised how tense you had become. "I'm sorry" He apologised as he cuddled his head in your hair waiting for you to fall asleep. 

~2 weeks later~

The past 2 weeks were spent free of any nightmares attacking your sleep due to being lulled to sleep by Tae's soft humming and warm embrace, it felt like the first time, he was your saviour again pulling out all the negativity out of your black stricken blood turning it to a light velvet red. No more speaking to yourself in the mirror, none of that, now you spent your days playing games with Taehyung and doing stupid stuff while Hoseok would leave you guys alone and go run his errands. But as always any happiness you ever feel always comes to an end, Taehyung has healed fully now due to you treating his injuries everyday.

You were in the kitchen focusing on the loud crisp chopping of the knife as you cut up the pinkish strawberry's. Too focused on your task that you didn't even feel Taehyung stand behind you. Your body jumped at his soft touch making its way around your waist flipping you around. "Good morning!" He yawned as he hugged you softly as you just waved at him. "Thank you for everything Y/n....I've had fun with you like the old times" His soft giggle made your lips push themselves into a smile. 

Can you really trust him though? think about it Y/n stop being so easy to get. What if he just use's you mm?  and you wonder why you always get hurt....

"Let me go Taehyung" You pushed his hands off you and turned back to your task, as your thoughts applauded your word choice. "Hey what's wrong? did I do something wrong?" He asked as he wanted to touch you but you quickly slapped his hand away. "Yes, you did... you act all nice to me and expect me to just forgive all the pain you put me through huh?" You snapped at him still clutching onto the knife in anger. 

"No.. I don't expect you to forgive me, I was in the wrong I know, but you also know that everything I did was to keep you safe, I got with Lisa so that her dad doesn't kill you and your parents, do you not understand? All the days I left you alone was to get rid of people that were trying to harm you!" his soft voice annoyed you for some unknown reason. 

"Oh whatever." You rolled your eyes as your heart ached at your stupidity. "Y/n...listen...tell me one thing straight do you still love me?" He held your wrists softly, as his puppy eyes glistened with tears. 

Love? how is he talking about love? what is there to love? he is just useless in anything he does. Let me remind you Y/n all his done is hurt you you got that? 

Your head filled with argument against your hearts strong feelings. There's a reason love is invisible, undetectable with anything but our minds. We aren't evolved enough to be trusted with it. We'd try to engineer it, alter it, use it, weaponize it. Aren't there always great reasons to do immoral acts? Or are they excuses to allow us to follow our more basic desire for dominance? Power addiction is always the wrong route to escape fear. The only way to understand love is to feel it, embody it, embrace it, And that's what you are about to do....let your heart win. 

"Yes...." You whimpered quietly as you felt the strong knots form in your throat threatening to unleash its loud sobs. "Then give me a chance Y/n...please one last chance." He pleaded as he held your hands softly and intertwined his warm fingers with your cold ones. 

Now what? you'll just et him back into your life like its nothing? you are so damn stupid 

"Uh...I can't just give you a chance...I can't risk getting hurt again" You let your tears escape the corners of your eyes and gently relax their ways onto your cheeks. "I Understand..." He bowed apologetically and began walking away. "Wait..." You pulled his wrist. "I want to give you a chance, but I need you to prove to me you won't hurt me, I need time" You let out a huge breath of tension. 

"I'll give you all the time you need, I'll prove to you that I'm worth it" He smiled brightly unleashing his box smile as he hugged you tightly pulling you off the floor. "Okai, Okai you monkey you are breaking my bones"

"Excuse me? do I look like a monkey? I am a lion!" He nodded violently as he got on all fours and ran around roaring. "See?" he put his hands on his hips proudly making you burst into laughter losing any tears you had waiting to fall. 

"I see I see that you have just gotten stupider." You giggled and walked back to the kitchen trying to finish off what you were cooking. "This is pure disrespect, as an elder I should be respected by kids!" He followed you like a puppy as he began to complain and fake cry like a complete idiot. 

"Alright Grandad I understand" You mocked him and finish the strawberry pancake and place them on the table. "Grandpa? EXCUSE ME!" as he screamed like a mad man you took one of the pancakes and shoved it in his mouth. "Shut up!" you chuckled at his shook face. 

~A few hours later~ 

Taehyung helped you clean around the house... well he actually made more mess than helping by breaking every single thing he touched. After cleaning you both decided to read some books that you had lying around in your room waiting for Hoseok to return form his little errand escape. "When Hyung comes home can we go shopping? I need new clothes these are so not in trend!" he stopped reading the book and began complaining like a teenage girl. "Jessica shut up!" You teased him and kept reading your book calmly. "JESSICA??? WHAT IS THIS??"he gripped his own face and looked at you running around. 

You slapped your own face and kept giggling at his stupidity as Hoseok entered looking at Tae with a disturbed face. "What the hell did you feed him? sugar?" He shook his head and sat on your bed as his face slowly drooped into a canvas of concern.

"Whats wrong hyung?" Tae stopped running around and sat next to Hoseok worried by his olders expression. "I've got bad news...."

"What bad news?" You bit your tongue. "Well, me and Tae have to leave or else they will come here and harm you guys..." he swallowed hardly as Tae kept his head down guiltyly.

Like I said your happiness never lasts

Authors note:

I'm sorry for such a short chapter but I wanted to try to update you guys quicker!!!! 😖 im sorry!!!