Gangster love (Bts Taehyung Fanfict)

Chapter 20

Let the game begin....

Taehyung rushed you to the kitchen as the boys followed excitedly except for Jin who looked scared for his poor kitchen. "Tae, I swear to god if you burn another pan I will murder you with  a fork!"  he growled at the younger who backed away quietly while the other boys sat themselves down at the rounded glass table. "I won't hyung I promise!!" He nodded excited to show you what he could cook. 

You try to lie to yourself, but there was no denying that he was really adorable and he was doing everything in his power to impress you, while all you could do is think about how to teach him a lesson, how to hurt him. Who's the evil one now huh? Tae walked over to the stove and began showing off his newly learnt cooking skills. 

You sighed at yourself and turned to Hoseok who was just playing games on his phone. "Hobi!" You whined as you touched his chest slowly dragging your fingers down, the boys looked at you shocked especially Hoseok who had no idea what was going on. Tae didn't realise which made you slightly annoyed. 

"Uh? Yes." He swallowed confused as he pulled your hand away. "Nothing I just missed you." You flashed your million dollar smile as Hoseok just looked at you cluelessly as you felt a burning glare in your back...Taehyung is mad finally, took him long enough. "Y/n." He pouted quietly and turned you around to watch him cook, you rolled your eyes making his lip quiver. 

The boys all stared at you slightly annoyed by your actions except for Hoseok who was still confused and looked around trying to understand what was going on. "Yes what?" You acted dumb as you sat properly in your seat and watched Him for a bit. 

Once you turned towards him the biggest box smile appeared as he bopped his head happily while continuing to cook. "So Hobi how have you been?" You smiled as you held his hand softly, Taehyung wanted to turn to speak up, he let his shoulders fall down in disappointment and just continued to cook. 

That fed your hungry soul up, seeing him angry fed your revenge yet made your heart ache for causing him pain.

Make your mind up woman!!

But then again payback he probably didn't even care when you were hurting so Y/n stop caring so much about this selfish idiot. "Um, I've been ok, and you?" He scratched his head. "I've been well too." You smiled softly as you threw your hands around his neck hugging him, making him blush slightly. 

Taehyung turned around with your favourite food, it smelt exactly like your moms cooking, placing a plate of food for everyone, he lost his smile and just looked down at the plates, His soft gaze landed over yours and sighed as he sat by your side. Those damned puppy eyes, how can you not feel bad for doing this when he looks at you like a broken child? 

~2 weeks later~ 

Since the boy's house was much more closer to the police station  than your little apartment, they offered that you should stay with them. You agreed but only if they let you pay rent, Jin didn't like the idea of his child paying rent but he accepted apathetically. Throughout these past 2 weeks you spent most of your time with Hoseok, upsetting Taehyung with every chance you got. 

What you haven't realised is that you were going to end up hurting two people, because of your stupid revenge, is revenge that important? what you'll end with will be to hurt angels that's all.....

"Y/n!!!" Hoseok's giggle echoed as you looked up from your paper work, he entered the kitchen fully and sat next to you at the table. "Hey, Hobi! what's up?" You asked not lifting your head from the load of work you were drowning yourself in. "I wanted to ask you something? can I? can I?" He jumped around you like a giddy child make your heart flatter at his cuteness, you nodded giving him a soft smile. 

"Can I take you out?" He asked puffing his soft cheeks as he played with his  fingers nervously. 

The question took you back slightly...can you continue to do this? come on Y/n this is becoming really stupid...really damn stupid. If you accept, Guilt will overwhelm you since you'll hurt Tae even more than  you already did. 

But if you don't accept, guilt will still eat you up since you'll be hurting Hobi's feelings....what have you got yourself into this time? 

"Uh...hobi can I go train? downstairs, I'll give you the answer later." You bit your lip hiding the painful truth as you closed your cases and stood up. You couldn't bare to look at the poor boy...you already know how his dazzling smile had vanished, replaced by confused eyebrows and pained lips yet annoyed eyes. 

Your gaze glued itself to the floor as you heard him sigh softly yet there was a pinch of heaviness that he wasn't able to hide. "Sure." the short and simple answer was left lingering in the air as you walked past him making your way to the basement. 

"Y/n you are an idiot." you growled at yourself as you wrapped the white bandages around your hands, tying them tightly , and taking your shirt off and replacing your long pants with a pair of boy shorts. 

 A long sigh with the depth of the ocean escaped your mouth as you stationed your feet into the ground and thrusted your fists into the cylindrical bag, the anger and regret you had built in was all taken out on the poor bag. This wasn't enough... you want more pain. 

Fill the hunger y/n.... 

You pulled the bandages off and punched the bricked walls bare handed, the skin split into tens of paths, as flesh ripped apart dripping to the floor, No stopping now, the adrenaline was too strong, the pain was way too addicting. 

Your breath hitched as you looked down at you ruined hands. the fists stopped on their own as you watched the pieces of flesh barely hanging on to your knuckles, sweat ran down your body like  a water slide. 

Pain 

Pain, now it finally kicked in, you let your body fall to the ground as you felt a fever already heating your body. 

"Hey Y/n ...what...the." Taehyung walked in as his jaw dropped at the blood that painted your hands, and kept leaking to your elbows. 

"What the hell did you do?" He asked in concern as he rushed to you and examined the inhumanly damage you gave to your hands. "Y/n answer me?" He crouched besides you and brushed his soft hands across your sweaty face. 

"I'm sorry." the confident words you thought of came out as a quiet whimper, making Tae's face crumble. 

"For what?" he asked as he took his shirt off and wiped your face. 

"For hurting you...because of my ...my stupid revenge." you bit your lip as tears spat out your eyes, wetting your cheeks. "What? you liking Hoseok?" He sighed sadly. You furrowed your eyebrows at his words. "I don't like him...I only did that to uh...get revenge." you were disgusted by your own words. 

Once again your heart ached with guilt and sorrow. But this time there was no one to blame but yourself. "Right so you just used me?" Scoffed Hoseok as he leaned against the door frame, your chest pained you as you heard the hurt masked by amusement in his voice. 

"You used me to punish him huh? what am I a puppet?" He growled as you watched his jaw clench, "That...that was stupid...really." Sighed Taehyung yet there was a sign of relief in his voice that you didn't like Hoseok. 

"You are just fucked up." He rolled his eyes as he left the door frame and found his way back upstairs. 

Yes you are fucked but what can you do? Is it really your fault? maybe it is.. maybe all you did is blame others but never yourself when you were the only one to blame for every single thing. 

"I'm sorry..." You whispered again as you got up, and began to unleash the new regret feeling onto the punching bag, plastering your blood and bits of flesh onto the black rubber. 

"Stop...." Tae's soft embrace captured you from the back as he held your wrists. "I understand why you did it.. but you should have only hurt me not Hoseok." his shoulders slouched. "You aren't helping." You frowned. 

Idiot.....

Idiot....

Author's note 

Yall IDK what the hell I wrote but yep,....I cant write for shit ugh ugh ugh!! anyway guyssss!! I hope Yall realised I'm writing a new story!!! It's with Jungkook give it a try!!!! I'll be updating that more than this one!!!!