Hold Onto Me (A Draco Malfoy story)

Chapter Thirty-Four: The Letter

TW: Talk of suicide

"What do you mean?" I ask with a worried tone. "What happened?"
Madeleine bit her lip and looked down.
"I think it would be best just to show you." She said. I quickly threw on a shirt and followed them. Even Snape looked scared.
"Where is she?" I asked as we walked to the girls dorms.
"We don't know." Snape said. The four of us walked into their dorm and my face fell when I saw small drops of blood on the floor. Maddie first led me to the bathroom, where a razor and pool of blood was. I felt like I was going to throw up. That couldn't be hers. I wouldn't believe it.
My hand gripped the sink as my knuckles turned white.
"Draco." Maddie whispered and I snapped my neck back to the three standing there.
"Who's is this? It isn't hers. She wouldn't-" I said with a shaky voice.
"There's more." Ann said. They led me to her dresser, where a stack of letters lay.
"Wha- no." I said, realizing what they were. I looked at the pile. Hermione, Harry, Ron, George, Fred, Luna, Ginny, Draco. There was a letter addressed to me. I sat down on her bed where the letters to Ann and Maddie had already been opened.
"You guys are joking. Please tell me you're joking." I said with a weak voice. "This is just one of the Weasleys sick pranks."
They didn't answer. We all knew I was just trying to make myself feel better. With a shaky hand I opened the letter and started reading.

Draco,
I'm so so so sorry. I'm sorry that we ended like this. I'm sorry that I did this. And I'm sorry I never got to tell you the truth.
Me and Fred never did anything. We fell asleep on the couch together, but nothing happened. I swear. And I'm sorry I couldn't convince you sooner. I shouldn't have even fallen asleep, but I was just so tired, I didn't realise it.
And I ruined everything. I'll never get to kiss your lips again. Hold your hand. Go on dates. Cuddle under the stars. Because I really do care about you. And it is so hard to live without you.
I have been struggling my whole life, but the past months have been too much. But I had you. Until I didn't because I was so stupid. I lost the one thing I truly loved.
But it is not your fault. I have been tetering for years, and this was just the final straw. I can't compete in the Cup, and I want to go out on my own terms. Please don't forget me.
I love you Draco Lucious Malfoy. So damn much.
-Lillian Pottah

A sob escaped my lips. I was such a fucking idiot! I was too busy being jealous to realise how broken she was. And now I might have lost her.
I might have lost her.
"We have to go. She might be alive." I said with a shaky voice.
"Draco, she's been gone for hours." Ann said but I wouldn't believe it.
"No! She's ok. She's gonna be ok." I said and left the room.
I was going to the gryffindor common room, something I never thought I would do. The others were following me as I ran down the hall to go and wake the others. It was barely 5 am and no one else was awake as the sun started to peak out.
"Password." The Fat Lady said and I groaned.
"I don't fucking know." I said and she crossed her arms. "Please. It's an emergency!" I begged.
"What emergency?" She asked with a cold face.
"Someone's missing. She might not make it and I need to get into the common room!" I yelled as Snape pulled me back a little.
"We need in." He said and the door swung open.
"Y-you two get the girls, I'll make my way to the guys side." I said and we ran our separate ways.
I swung a door open loudly and looked for their filthy red hair. No one.
"What the hell?" A gryffindor asked, squinting.
"Shut it. What room is Potter and the Weasels?" I asked.
"Third one to the left. Why?" He asked but I was already gone.
I opened the door and they were all asleep.
"Get up!" I yelled and Ron shrieked. "Now!"
Harry put on his glasses and realized who it was, and glared.
"I swear if you are joking with us at 5 in the fucking morning." He said but I didn't have time.
"It's Lillian." I said and everyone stopped talking.
Fred stood up and walked over to me, pulling me up by my shirt.
"What did you do to her!?" He yelled. "What happened?"
"Guys stop this petty fighting!" A female voice yelled. Hermione. "She's in danger."
Fred put me down and we all turned to the girls.
"What happened?" George asked.
"She's missing." Hermione said and bit her lip. "She is going to kill herself."

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Omg why are these so short lol the ones I wrote like this week are much longer it seems.

But yeah that's the tea and it's gonna be dracos POV for a long while cause uh.... yes.

Don't hate me just read with it haha 😃

I like making people sad and angry 🤪 but I will update again tonight so yeah not a lot to say