A Directioner Diaries

Chapter 25: I thought you loved me.

Sunday 25th October
Dear diary,
What happened after that:-
'Aren't you going to invite me in first?' I asked and his face started turning in colors.
'Umm..about that...' He started but was soon cut off by a blonde coming out behind him, wearing nothing but a T-shirt that was two sizes bigger and an underwear.
'Niall, babe! Are you done yet? I can't wait any longer!' She said playing with strands of her hair.
There was nothing I could do..I couldn't just go there and grab her, slap her and show her who is his babe! Oh wait! I could've! But I was too focused on how much he hurt me instead of focusing on how will I hurt him.
I stared at Niall as tears of mascara fell on my cheeks and I couldn't control myself....I tried to keep them in, I couldn't just show him what a mess he made and how weak I was!
'Dida I-' he said reaching out for my hand.
I pulled away and started to yell, 'Don't touch me! Don't you dare touch me! How could you!' I looked at her and more anger came rising through me and I felt like I was going to explode.
'You just asked me to fucking marry you, you asshole!'
'You what?!' The girl said as she got inside and wore her ripped skinny jeans that showed off all of her legs, what a whore! She pushed Niall aside and looked at me for a second then disappeared.
'I thought you loved me!' I said pushing him aside and running away. Actually, I didn't know where I was going, but I had to run away....I couldn't just stay there and make him feel sorry! I didn't want him to feel sorry! I wanted to him to feel the anger running through his skin like he did to me! I wanted him to feel the hurt that he made me feel.
After my last relationship, I didn't believe I could fall for someone again, but I did...and I fell hard.

I think that we should love
Not fall in love
Because everything that falls

Gets broken.

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