A Directioner Diaries

Chapter 22: That Scary Possibility

Tuesday 20th October
Dear diary,
I know it has been a week since I last written down, but it has been quite hard...I regret letting him go.
I should go and make him forgive me...I don't know how...I feel all alone without him...without his existence in my life....I am such an a$$ for letting him go...I want him....
I need him.
I love him.
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My stomach hurt me and I ran away to the bathroom feeling a sensation to throw up.
My head was right in the toilet and I was throwing up harassingly..it was so disgusting and relieving to let it all out.
I called Hana and told her to come over as soon as possible.
Of course, ten minutes after I hung up I heard a knock on the door. I went to see who's the knocker and it was Hana, I let her in and I started to rabble about everything that is going on. Starting from the fact that I kissed Niall Horan to the position I was in that time.
'Wait...do you feel sick like all of the time?' She asked.
'Yep' I answered popping the "p".
'Dizzy?'
'Ugh yeah!' I said rolling my eyes.
'Emotions, kind of, all over the place?'
'Uh huh!' I answered referring to the break up as I pouted.
'Dida? I think that you are....pregnant...' She hesitated to say it at first, but she was my best friend and she had to help me...support me....I guess if it was true....maybe if it's true then my unborn child would've had the most amazing auntie in the whole wide world...but the thought of having a baby at THIS AGE! Is CRAZY!
'Preg-W-What? How? Niall and I didn't....Oh.God!' My words took a lot of time to travel out of my mouth, but they eventually found their way and I guess I asked questions and answered them at the same time....okay that sounded weird! Why am I calm!! I SHOULDNT BE CALM! My first appointment will be next Friday and I am taking Hana and Hannah with me!! Yay! No! Ugh! I am scared as hell!! I can't believe I could be carrying a living human in my stomach...I could be a...mum....?!