Lately I've been staying awake at night. I don't know why, maybe I'm missing someone, or maybe I like to hear old songs and I like to go down the memory lane OR
Maybe I'm starting to like this silence, loneliness, rejection, abandonment, seclusion.
When people ask me why do you like being awake at night? I have so many answers in my head. I wanna say, I am not doing okay, I am in a midlife crisis, I am not fine, I am alone, all alone but if I say this, then they're gonna ask so many questions, and they'll just start becoming an expert so I just say, "I just like the kick of it".
I know, I should share more and more, and I should let them know, but why, why is it necessary that everyone needs to know that I'm doing shitty. I have more than 1000 friends on Facebook. Do any of them care? No. But, it's not their fault, because they too are busy in untangling this so called LIFE. I don't blame it on anyone. It's just me.
Back when I was a kid, I had thought of going places. I had planned how I am gonna live my life. I had planned that by the age of 25, I'll be the happiest person. I will be happy, enjoying the life and whatnot. And now I just think and look at that kid. How naive he was! He didn't knew anything. But he had this one quality, this calibre, this zeal, "How to believe in something."
I wish I had that power inside me but unfortunately it isn't and this chapter is gonna close with me and no one will ever know why he has been staying awake at night
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