My letter to you

All The Moments

I didnt really pay much attention to you. You were always in the back. The back of my mind, the back of my viewpoint, but you never caught my eye, if you did the others would steal my attention as quick as you got it.

There were moments when you took the stage and moments I was proud of you, you being you of course were always fitting into the crowd, blending in, sometimes you'd blend in so much it would be hard to see you were there unless I payed full attention to you.

There were moments you stole the spotlight and moments you were ignored but you still shined. You were always apart of the group and you made sure everyone knew you were, so just enough times you'd remind them "I'm here!". Those two words were never said though, but you could hear them, they echoed in your ears until you registered his presence.

There were moments when things got tough, i stopped paying attention to you again. But you tried to grasp it either way, forcing your way through the barrier I built, one I built to keep you out of my life. But you broke through. So I repaired and repaired and repaired, but each time you relentlessly broke through until I could no longer shut you out.

Once again, you don't even know who I am. But you insist on breaking the walls and barriers I build.

When everything went dark I'm sure you struggled too, it was dark for quite some time. But when I had to choose to abandon the world along with you, you said "I'm here." And I heard it, I heard it so loud and clear but... I abandoned you still.

I chose myself over the moments I had with you, even through the screen I chose someone else instead of you. We had some really good moments, so I can't blame you for someone else's mistakes, I can't blame you for doing something you didn't do.

Because you didn't break my trust, you didn't lie, you didn't play with my emotions, you were true to the very end or atleast I hope you were so ill cherish those moments and I won't blame you.

Those moments were once at the back of my head, just sitting there, unnoticed. But today they made their move and decided to say "I'M HERE" loud and clear and this time my attention is on you. Because even during the dark times, even afterwards your still there. So I'll cherish the moments with you, before they turn into memories I no longer desire to keep.

So thank you, for the moments you broke down those barriers, because I didn't know what I was losing until I lost them, and what I lost were the moments with you, and I don't want to lose them again. You weren't an important person in the beginning but I think your somewhat the reason why I've stayed. But there's only so much you can do to keep me here.

So...

Until you can no longer keep me here ill continue to cherish the moments, I'll continue to notice you, I'll continue and continue to pay heed to your voice, the silent but impactful and attention-catching "I'm here!" for as long as I'm here. So please,make those moments the best I'll have.