My letter to you

Special

Seungmin. That's your name. I won't give riddles and have you guess if this is your letter. Because it is. Theres no doubt about it. This is your letter. This is for you. It'll always be for you.

Truth is, I don't know what to tell you, what to say, or how I should say it. There's so many things going on my mind as I write this. So much that I can't even think straight. Every sentence I write is the first thing I can think of.

I have little to no memories with you,little to no moments either. You fade away. The image of you in my mind is blurry, but I know it's you. Because there are moments and memories that only you could have given me.

You were subtle. Quiet and lurking in a corner but I knew you were there. I always knew you were there. Even in the darkness I knew you were there.

Your smile was bright, not too bright but bright enough, Your laugh echoed just perfectly enough for me to register the fact that it was yours.

I've always had trouble registering and recognizing faces. They were hard to put together in my mind. When I saw faces they looked normal, but when I focused on one part of someones face the rest would disappear, they were still there but at the same time they weren't.

When I tried to put a face together, or when I do it, it dances around in my brain and when it comes together it's blurry. But not you, when I think of your face, or when I look at you, I can fully recognize you, It's not blurry. I can see. Its not that hard to put your face together.

You're really special. You have no clue. Really, thank you for giving me an opportunity to not be able to struggle. Even if it for ten seconds or less. Those moments were precious to me.

I guess I got to say what I wanted to. This is your letter, no doubt about that, it'll always be yours. Your special enough for me to say that.