Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story, Really hope you like it, Leave me your feedback.
Zayn's Pov:
All I have to give right now is a promise. A promise of patience and understanding. Niall he's been through so much the past few years his trust in people has suffered because of it, Niall was always the trusting person, He would be there for you and never let go, But so much has happened he's afraid to do that now. I couldn't see the pain he was going through, I knew he was hurting but I was blinded, Blinded by my own stupidity. I have alot of making up to do right now, I have a point to prove. I've got to keep my promise and I intend to, I know things with Niall won't go back to normal straight away, I know he needs time to gain my trust again, And I'm willing to wait, I will wait as long as it takes. The other thing I have to be is understanding, I have to understand that he's not ready for us to go back to how we were, And I do respect that, I would never push Niall, Not when I know how afraid he is. Niall's always been fragile, His trust is like a mirror once its broke you can repair it over time but it will never be the same again. Niall's trust in people will never be the same, But I can try and make it better.
I smiled to myself as I walked down the stairs to see Niall studying, He was reading a book while playing around with his mums bracelet he looked so happy, Just the thought of it made me smile like a mad person, I shook my head before walking over to the couch, I dropped beside him.
"What you got planned for today?" I asked.
"Nothing, How about you?" He replied.
"The boys wanted me to hang out but I thought we could do something?" I suggested, Niall gave me a weird look.
"Zayn go spend time with your friends" He said, I shook my head.
"No, I want to spend sometime with you, Cher's not around today so I thought we could have a movie day? Lay around and just chill like the old days?" I suggested, Niall sighed.
"You sure?" He asked, I nodded my head.
"Course I am" Niall smiled before nodding his head in agreement. I smiled before rushing upstairs to grab us some films and blankets. Once I'd gotten them all I rushed back down the stairs and began laying them out on the couch. I waited a few minutes before Niall made his way into the room with some food he laid it out on the table before dropping down on the couch.
"What film did you choose?" Niall asked.
"Harry Potter" I replied.
"Do you remember when we went to the cinema to watch it?" Niall asked.
"Course I do, You was sitting there asking me questions for the whole time" I replied.
"I wanted the spoilers!" Niall stated with a cheeky grin.
"Then you should have read the book" I replied with a smirk.
"I'll pass" Niall replied chuckling, I laughed happily before pressing play on the DVD.
"How can they not tell he's evil? He's one creepy looking mother fucker!" Niall stated causing me to choke on my drink.
"Because he's a professor at Hogwarts Nialler" I replied.
"That dosen't mean nothing, Our chemistry teacher has the same look as him and everyone calls him an evil bastard" Niall said.
"He is a evil bastard" I stated with a smile.
"So is Snape" Niall stated, I shook my head before chuckling. "Reminds me so much of the cinema" I added.
"We had so much fun that day, Remember when we started throwing popcorn at eachother?" Niall asked, I nodded my head.
"Yeah and when we got bored we started throwing it at random people" I added, Niall laughed happily.
"Then the McDonalds after" Niall stated.
"I still can't believe you put all that away and you was still hungry after" I said.
"Well you know how much I love my food" Niall replied.
"Indeed I do" I stated, Niall smiled.
"Do you remember everything? Like our old friendship?" Niall asked.
"Of course I do, You were my bestfriend Nialler, Your the closest friend I've ever had, I could never forget about our friendship it means to much to me, Ni do you think we could ever go back to how we were?" I asked, Niall shook his head.
"No, I don't think we could, The past is the past, There's no going back to it no matter how much we want to, I'm trying to forgive you for everything I know someday I will, But right now I'm just hesitant, I have to learn to trust again, And when I do, I don't think we could go back to how we was, I think we could be much better then that" Niall stated.
"Really?" I asked.
"Really, I don't want to spend my life being mad or holding a grudge lifes to short, Losing my mum made me realize that, It made me see that we have to take each day as it comes and make the most out of the good things in our lives, We take to much for granted and we never really know what we have until it's gone" Niall exclaimed.
"I know what you mean" I said.
"Do you?" He asked.
"Yeah, When we stopped being friends, For a long time it felt like part of me was missing, Like whenever I was with the guys it didn't feel right to me, Because you wasn't there, I always knew your friendship meant so much to me, But when I lost it it made me realize just how much it means, Your friendship means everything to me Nialler, All the times I saw you with Cher I was jealous, Because it always used to be me that you turned to, I still am jealous, But I'm not expecting anything from you Niall, I know it's going to take a long time, And I know how much I have to prove to you and I'm going to do it, I won't stop until I've made everything up to you" I explained, Niall smiled before nodding his head.
"I do believe you Zayn, But the worry is always there, I know I can get past it, It's just going to take me a while, Can you wait?" Niall asked, I nodded my head.
"I'd wait forever Nialler" I stated, Niall smiled before pulling me into a hug, I smiled as I hugged him back.
Have you ever had times where you feel nothing but happiness? You feel complete in a way you never have before. Everyday I know I'm a step closer to Niall letting me in again, But I'm taking nothing for granted, I should have been there for him I know that, I know I can't go back but I can make it up to him, I can be there for him now. I want nothing more then to protect Niall, That's all I want is for him to be happy, Which is why I can't tell him what I'm hiding, It could ruin everything and I can't pin that on him, How am I supposed to tell Niall that everyday I think I'm falling inlove with him.
