A Pure Hearted Mate

Chapter 28: Backlash

Warning: Has a scene of being raped, suicidal thoughts and actions, depression. Disturbing to those who read please take this warning For those who have had bad experiences with rape I suggest being prepared to face some hard stuff when reading this chapter. 

[ Autumn POV ]

It has been a week since my readjustment to being back in Andrews room.  The longer I stay in this room the more I find myself feeling worse than the day before. Each day I wait and do nothing but thinking and when Andrews comes back around seven at night. Each time he tries to act more affectionate and giving me new outfits which I can't wear anywhere else. Most of the time when I look at the clothes he gets me. I just hang them up in the closet not knowing what else I'd do with them. Most of the time I think he tries to buy me with these things.

Each time he holds me in his arms or tries to kiss my neck and when he'd go into the bathroom to shower I want nothing more than to just sit down and imagine Leo's arms holding me. Or just something simple like him kissing my forehead. I sat on the edge of his bed one day and when he came back in the room I felt weary as he came over and took notice of me doing anything with his bed. Andrews didn't have a mating ceremony for the pack, and decided to have it held here in this room.

He tried to mark me on my right side of my neck, but I think the blood part was the most sickening. He in the end failed to mark me properly. Thankfully that meant I didn't have to get any mark which I'd want removed.

His mind-link was slightly connected now; which feels kinda strange since I wondered if the connection with Leo was still there or not. Even now I'm not sure and Andrews seems to enjoy the mind-link a lot. He'd try to answer the questions I'd have but it only felt like he was doing it to spite me, or maybe to flaunt any hold he has over me. This makes me mostly think about Leo even more Grayson and Jace made me worry if they'll be alright being away from their mother for this long.

I snapped out of my thoughts and found myself noticing Andrews was lying in bed and before I could fully sit up off the bed I felt him pull me next to him. I think he figured I was going to do as much, but what was I going to do? Sleep?! Never! He yawned deep and low, a rumbling in his chest, and pulled me under the covers. It was so quick I don't think that If I tried, he would let me up, who would have guessed I would ever be here, let alone in his bed.

" Our bed. " He yawned, it sent shivers up and down my spine. My wolf liked feeling included, but worries me sometimes at the idea of him hearing my thoughts; while I rarely like having to hear his. I think to myself looking at him, his toned tan body making deep steady breaths.

I just felt his body heat and felt like a captive more than someone who wants to sleep in the same bed. I decided to try and wait till he'd be deep asleep before I'd try to sneak away. I felt as time passed that I gave up and let myself catch some sleep. I turned around on my side and tried to curl up and go to sleep.

The next morning Andrews woke me up with arms holding me and he was trying to hold a smile that showed he was happy I was still with him in his bed. When I woke up I scolded myself for letting myself being so exposed in his bed of all places. I slide out of his bed and went to the bathroom. When I came out and was going to sit on the couch I herd him mind-link me

' Autumn, come over here...' I would usually try to ignore him but I decided to walk over to him as he sat on the side of the bed. I stood in front of him and next thing I know he pulls me onto his lap and starts to hold me around my hips and nuzzling into my neck. My wolf wanted to gleefully wrap our arms around him and kiss him but I tried to use my arms to tell how far I can hold myself away from him. Each affectionate gesture wouldn't work.