A Pure Hearted Mate

Chapter 37: Understanding

It became an almost normal part of our everyday schedules. We had gone to multiple session's ever more unveiling more about what both of us had gone threw. But when Dr. Isabelle wanted to hear from us about me alone with her. I did feel uncomfortable when Leo was asked to stand outside so that she could try and ask me things that I might want to keep from Leo. The confidential papers are kept in a filing cabinet of the desk which I had only seen a couple of times opened.

I said to Leo that I was open to having the mind-link on when either of us step outside. This way anything we have to say the other could know that we aren't going to keep anything from each other. But with just me and Dr. Isabelle I did feel awkward at first and very self-conscious.

But when it came up about how Alpha Andrews started acting with me. She asked me snapping me out of my recollection " When he'd keep you trapped in his room. Do you fear that Leo might start to want to do similar possessive ways of keeping you in a safe place? " I felt surprised but took a bit to think. ' I mean, I'm the one who tries to stay within contact range of him. He wouldn't go that far, right? Right. '

" Well, I'm the one who's more afraid to leave the house, and besides that I don't think Leo would go far as to limit my own freedom. " I said trying to smile weakly. Then she asked " So do you think that maybe that kind of containment has caused some..unhealthy isolation habits? " I answered starting to look down messing with my fingers nervously

" Maybe a little bit.." she took note and said " I wouldn't be surprised if it became a habit to try to protect yourself, but do you think it could also be so that Alpha Leo doesn't get angry with you? " I didn't answer and just thought that over. She moved on from that topic and as time went on with different times in different session's. I got to parts of my confinement in Alpha Andrews cell. I told her and also Leo who was on the other end of the door and link.

" I think that..over my time of being in his pack house. That there were times when I'd either notice things that felt wrong or upsetting. And some that didn't bother me until later on. " I said looking down

" Like what exactly? " she asked looking intrigued " What exactly do you mean by wrong? " she listened intently as I said " Like when my wolf would want the opposite from me. How she'd want us to do things and make thing rationalized when I know she's wrong. " she then said

" I think I understand what you are referring to. Many cases of second chance mates do tend to make the more easy going nature of our wolves does make the mate pull complicate already existing bonds and emotions. " I felt my eyes starting to tear up at hearing that I'm not the only one who has had to feel this strange detachment and confusion with my wolf. I was looking down and said quietly " Well that's good to hear.." she then took a bit as I tried to compose myself. I started to speak my mind more openly

" I've been caring around a lot of guilt because of myself. " I didn't want to cry but I couldn't help but feel sad at remembering everything

 " Like how I was in a prison cell and I started to feel guilty for starting to cling to Alpha Andrews visits because I was starting to feel lonely. " " Or when I had someone...try to rape me and he ended up dying before my eyes by him. " Isabelle placed a box of tissues on the coffee table encase I wanted one. I took one just to try and dry the tears that were building as I continued

" I didn't even care about his life or that he died. I just wanted to escape and I was scared for my life and what he'd do to me in that state. I wondered what was wrong with me to not even care anymore. " I started to cry a little which a part of me hated me doing this because it just feels like a cliche to cry in a therapy session. She had said trying to sound supportive