A Pure Hearted Mate

Chapter 20: A Long Ride

[ Autumn POV ]

Woke up and noticed that Leo wasn't beside me. Normally I would expect this and gotten used to this. I didn't mean I was happy about it though. I grabbed a pillow and barryed my face in it. Then I herd Jay wanting to come in to see how I am doing. When she came in she smiled and asked looking at me in the bed 

" Hey Autumn, how are you feeling? You alright? " Then I felt myself breakdown as I started to cry out 

" I miss my Leo!!.." I was holding the pillow since I wanted to hold him close to me. She started to look nervous because I don't burst into tears like this. Damn these mood swings!!! I started to cry as she sat on the bed beside me trying to hug me saying encouragingly

" There there. It's okay he'll be back as soon as he can. So there's no need to be cry, " then I cried out not feeling logical and lonely

" But I miss him already! I want him with me through this! " she tried to console me understanding how to deal with me like this

" Now now, try to calm down and stop acting like a baby. " I exclaimed " I'm going to have two babies at my age and I might have to deal with the hardest part without the man I love with me! I have every right to be crying right now. " she didn't know what to say now that I shot her plan down to help make me calm down. She got tissues for me which I went through like toilet paper. When I finally stopped crying my mood changed to feeling tired again. 

Then Jay grabbed a pillow and gave it to me. I started to act like a toddler who only wanted their favorite toy or wanted their parents to buy them something they wanted.

" No! " I flailed the pillow around as I tried to combat my drained energy " I want My Leo! I don't want to sleep with a pillow! " then I felt myself starting to feel like crying again for no reason but because I want Leo. Jay then left the room making me wonder if she really gave up on me acting like this. I wouldn't blame her if that was the case. I started to feel myself sigh and said recognizing Summer's scent.

"Hey, Summer. I see what you were thinking to get you to calm me down by bringing her into this Jay! " then the door opened slightly revealing only Summer standing there. She asked confused and surprised

" Uh, Jay said for us to change shift, but how did you know I was here? " I felt flabbergasted at the fact that I had no idea how I could tell by her smell and behind a door was able to tell. How was I able to tell? I shrugged it off and said 

" I..I guess I can say that it was a normal guess....I suppose. " she excepted this but I still feel confused how I did that. She basically tried to console me as well. But then I started to feel my frustrations and anger surfacing. My thoughts made me want to vent how unfair it felt.

" I want my mate, my soulmate to be with me through all this! I want the man I want to have these boys with to be more around! Is that so selfish of me to want what usual couples have when they're having kids?! " Summer tried to calm me down patting me on the back

" No, it would make things easier on you. That doesn't mean you're a bad person for wanting that. " I knew there was only so much any of them could do to try and understand. I started crying again into the pillow and started to break down

" I'm such a mess. I try to do my best but all I can do is improvise and it's not helping any body pretending like you guys have any idea of how it feels. I'm constantly having to deal with getting weaker to where I can hardly do anything! " then she asked as I sniffled 

" Have you been talking with Mom? Has she been giving you a hard time? " I blowed my nose and said " No, she hadn't said much to me since last time. She had called me once but it didn't last long, snif. " " I think she's more excepting now, but she seems to want to...give space after what happened last time. " I think all my crying took all the energy out of me. Next thing I know I'm passed out. She left me to sleep but because of the babies kicking I found myself tossing and turning around in my sleep. I managed to stay asleep; until I felt intense pains in my stomach jolt me wake. I realized as I looked at the clock that it was already 1 p.m.