A Pure Hearted Mate

Bonus Chapter: First Valentine's Day

[ Author: Hello! This chapter is a little early but I didn't want to keep you all waiting for Valentine's Day✌️❤️

This takes place a while after Autumn and Leo's first Christmas. Leo is always a bit of a romantic but not attempting the real thing and how Autumn would like it changes things up. But with their first Valentine's together. Having his mate on the day of love was driving him to go big or play it safe, and he wanted to get her a little bit more open to receiving his affection more physically. While Autumn is a bit of a romantic herself but she knows the limits of it and what actually matters in all of the books and advertisement of the holiday. It's that they can listen and just spend time together. So it's bound to be tough. ]

[ Autumn P.O.V ]

Valentine's Day is coming up in a couple days and I've been trying to plan what to do for Leo. This is all kinda new to me though. Not having any previous relationship's before and only knowing how to do the kinds of generic cards for kids at my school's kind of thing. I never had my own Valentine from someone I care about in a romantic sense before so I don't know what to expect.

I've thought about it and it's hard to think about if I should try wearing something or just doing a nice gesture. There's always a kind of pressure or vague idea of what is expected or wanted from one partner and the other may not be that far along and may not do something too over the top.

I remember in high school it was a lot worse. People would use Valentine's Day as an excuse to dump the person they are dating, or just do it because they can't handle this kind of pressure. Some even ask friends if they can date on Valentine's Day just because they were dumped by someone.

I never understood it until now, but I'm a little nervous just what Leo is expecting or wanting from me. I've tried to ask him if he'd like to celebrate it and he said he'd like to. I do too, but it's hard when I'm still trying to identify the relationship and where I'm comfortable physically.

I know that Leo can be really really sweet, but I can't always let myself take in his love without asking myself if he is trying to lead me into something more physical. It makes me back out and try and get him to real himself in and it does put strain on our relationship, I know it. I just take my time to get comfortable and relax but I'm always on guard like if I give him an inch he'll think a couple step ahead of me.

The first description about Leo I herd all the way back before the ceremony Jay did say that he's the kind of guy that isn't afraid to love me after work is all over and done with. If he's not afraid and I am I just wonder where is the middle ground for us to meet? 

Christmas was kinda like the middle ground I'd like. The kind that you don't have to expect anything just being together and be comfortable with each other and just enjoy each others company. Even if we kiss it doesn't feel too expected and it's nice when we do. But it seems like I can't really talk to him about this because over the last week he seems to be getting busier than usual because I can hardly find a time when he's not working or going off to do something.

I don't want to bother him and I honestly don't know how I could even start that conversation. I tried to figure out what to say but a little bit of me doesn't want to see me hurt him and what that looks like.

I just let him do his work and I do mine as I try and wrap my head around this. It's only at night that I sometimes get to see him now. He cuddles me and holds me but when we just want to sleep there's not really room to talk when I know how much he might need the sleep.

[ Valentine's Day ]

Okay, I have a rough idea of what today looks like as far as I know but I've been busy to where I'm outside the house a lot. I do feel slightly uncomfortable with the fact that I have a vague idea of what I'm going to be doing once I get back.