Save Me and I'll Save You L.S

Chapter 5

A/N  Ahhhhh well now two people other than me have started reading this and have been leaving the sweetest comments and I just wanted to say thank you, your comments make me so happy and excited to keep working on this! Anyways chapter 5 :))

Harry

5 days. It had been 5 days since powerful blue eyes had sent Harry into a downwards spiral, and he didn't know what was wrong with him because he did not like guys. Harry was most definitely attracted to girls, he had to be. 

Harry lay on his excessively sized bed trying to shut the small blue eyed boy out of his head. His hair was a wreck from his hands raking through it as he had been desperately trying to cleanse his mind from the image of Louis Tomlinson. Images of  thin lips, defined cheek bones, and wispy brown hair that was twinged with caramel flashed through is head and Harry tried not to linger on the thought of how adorable he had looked all bundled up in those coats. But no. Harry would not allow himself to be attracted to Louis that was wrong, he was not allowed to be attracted to a boy. 

The weekend had been a blur to Harry, he had been desperate to forget Louis. So he had drowned the night away at a party or at least that was what he could remember. Harry had consumed every pill that was shoved in his direction, breathed in every cigarette, inhaled countless lines, and had swallowed drink upon drink all in an attempt to forget the stranger in his head. And it had worked but Harry had gotten so lost that when pairs of hands had slipped under his shirt and pulled him away from the party he had been unable to protest. The next morning he had woken alone with lipstick smeared over his neck and his clothes nowhere to be seen. But it had been a distraction nonetheless. 

As he sat alone in his luxurious room trying to forget the blue eyed boy he couldn't help but wonder where he had gone wrong. Harry was beyond lonely, yet looking in from the outside it would seem he had all the friends in the world. He felt so empty every day, somedays he thought it would be easier if we wasn't around, all he wanted was to like girls because he needed to be normal. It was something that could be learned though and practice makes perfect, with that in mind he picked up his phone and sent a text to the first girl he saw in his contacts not sure how her number had even gotten there in the first place.

Within 10 minutes he heard his apartment door open, taking a deep breath he left his room to meet his guest. Grace was her name, or he sure hoped it was. 

"Hey" He said simply.

Ignoring him the girl's gaze dropped to his belt making quick work of ripping it off along with his pants and then everything else the he wore. Harry felt any hint of hope or happiness fade away because he knew that all she wanted was to tell her 'friends' if you could even call them that, about how she fucked Harry Styles. 

After she left Harry went and showered only letting his tears fall when he knew that he was truly alone. Why was he only an object? People didn't want to actually know him, they only wanted to come to his parties or to use him for sex. They didn't care to ask how he was, he felt so pathetically alone, he could almost feel it branded into his forehead but no one ever noticed, maybe because they were only ever looking at his body.

Harry's head was very much betraying him and he knew that sleep would not come easily. After drying off his body he swiped whatever pills he could find and swallowed them down eager to numb his mind. He wasn't sure what he had taken but it seemed to have the opposite effect because he found himself thinking about Louis. Wondering what he was like, he wondered what his mouth tasted of he wanted to know much to his own disgust, he wanted to know what Louis's hands felt like on his skin. No. It would never happen Harry liked girls, he liked girls, Harry was straight. 

His thoughts infuriated him he just wanted to forget he wished he had never met Louis, why couldn't it have been Zayn instead? He just wanted to feel normal, usually girls distracted him and so did the pills and alcohol but they weren't working to help him forget Louis. It was in that moment when Harry decided he hated Louis, everything had been fine before him. Harry had been learning to like girls how he should but then Louis ruined it all. Louis and his stupid layered coats, and how he couldn't speak without it being all jittery, and and, and no. Harry needed more distractions he would start going to his classes, they would be useful the sooner he started doing well in school the sooner he could finish and get away from Louis. 

Upon deciding that he would start trying in school Harry's thoughts subsided, he hated Louis and he was going to act like he never met him. That way everything would be just fine, it was going to work out everything was going to be alright. 

A/N Chapter 5 is a bit of a baby one but still its something? I'm not entirely happy with this chapter I think Harry sounds a bit similar to Louis, maybe its just me? Did we like getting a glimpse into Harrys mind and his life? If not I'll do more from Louis pov but I wanted to mix it up a tad with this chapter! I know I already mentioned it at the start of the chapter but I'm so happy people have started seeing this! 

Have a good day/evening everyone! 

And I'll be back with chapter 6 soon :))