My Lifeline

Proposal

Chapter 06:

Neil realized his feeling towards Avni but he was lack of money because he bought a home and other things so for once a question came in his mind how will he give her a good life he don't have enough money and he want to give Avni a life of princess where she will only get happiness and pamper a lot Neil was in dilemma whether he propose her or never tell her his feelings.

Neil's point of view:

I love Avni yes I really love her she is my lifeline but should I propose her right now I don't have anything to give her except love my whole savings I spent in buying this home and also I took the loan from the bank how can I give her a good life I want to give her a life of princess where she get only love and pamper a lot but am I able to give her that life I have nothing money, family, future security nothing how will he give her that life and besides that I don't know she loves me or not, what if my  love would be one sided and she consider me only a friend, what if she will refuse my proposal what if I lose her friendship no no I I can't lose her friendship on the name of family I only have she I can't leave her and I also hide my real identity from her I never thought that time that I will meet her again so I lied but I wanted to tell her later I tried a lot to tell her the truth but everytime the fear of losing her stopped me what if I lose her I can't lose her at any cost but it's her right to know the truth but what's the use of it I will never go back to them so why I bring back the past I want to forget it I don't have any relation with them they broke all ties with me I was not their son they they ado.

Neil's eyes were teary.

Neil's point of view ends.

Neil: they adopted me they never accept me as their son never.

Neil cries he squeeze his nose and wipes his tears he looked determined.

Neil: no I don't have any relation with them nor I will go back to them but Avni Avni is my life I can't live without her I will do hard work besides RJ work I will try to start my own business I should try to find job I can't do jobs it's not difficult but if I do that then how can I meet Avni I have to give her equal time so when I propose her she will not have any insecurities but what should I do.

Neil thinks.

Neil: yes I can start my job as freelancer I can do work from home by doing this I will give equal time to Avni yes that's right thanks to pa no Prakash khanna he asked me to took admission in MBA now my those skills will help me and when I will have enough money I will start my own business I know it will take time but I will do it I will do it for my Avni for our better life yes I will do it.

Neil take out his cell phone and start searching for jobs he was determined Avni is his first and only priority he can't live without her he don't know when Avni became his lifeline his breathe.

On the other side Avni was sitting on the bed she was very well aware of Neil's nature she know how shy Neil is if he love her still he will not propose her there are many reasons shyness, financial assurance, good life so she know she has to take fisrt step.

Avni: I love Nirav but is he love me or just consider me as a friend if he love me still he will not confess it in fact he will not realize that I  have to do something I have to take the first step but what if he refuse Avni don't think like this he also love you or if he refuse you then what's in it we will live as friends like before but I can't live by keeping it as a secret why stop living by thinking about the consequences by thinking what will happen we stop living and suppress our feelings no I will not do that and I have experience in facing heartbreak so no worries I will handle it yes I live confess my love to him soon I will do it.

Avni smiles and lays on the bed and dream about her and Neil's happy life she faced a lot in her life but she know one thing all men are not same nor all people have same fate she believe in living.