Hidden Bruises [Completed]

[chapter nineteen]

The last few days with Logan has been the best. It made me get my mind off of a lot of things and all the bad shit that happened was fading from my mind.

It was like none of that happened and I didn't think about it anymore.

My sleep was getting better.

I was coping with the way things were now and it was such a relief.

Logan has been off the last few days, which was great and I took the last few days off from classes. I knew that I needed time away before I stepped back into reality.

Plus, I didn't want to leave Logan's side just yet.

She made me feel better and I loved the feeling she made me feel.

I couldn't explain it but it was as warm, fuzzy feeling that when you get around certain people that makes you feel safe and protected.

I couldn't deny my feelings for her now. Since I've been with her for almost a week and I knew that these feelings were growing by the days.

It was a little scary to say the least. I tried stopping myself from liking her but it was hard to do.

She was literally perfect.

Her personality was amazing. Her humor was great. I loved her smile and her laugh. She was always happy about things, every single day that I was here.

Something I never experienced with Sandra.

It was a completely different atmosphere.

Logan and I have gotten close over the last few days. I learned more about her family, her job and everything else that she decided to tell me. I didn't even have to ask, besides asking her where she was from and all that.

She had passion in her eyes when she spoke about working for the sheriff's office. She said she's always wanted to be a cop and it was a dream come true for her.

It made me smile when she smiled.

And I was starting to get really close to this woman.

I think she even noticed it too. I remember one night when we were watching tv, laughing about something and I had stared at her a little too long. I was also near her, almost touching her legs with my legs since we were sitting on the same couch.

But she didn't move away and that's what made my heart start pounding.

When the weekend came, I called in work and told him about what happened. Mr. Reeds asked if I was ok and I said yes but I needed to take off from work a little while to cope, which he agreed.

It was still a little weird for me and I didn't think going back to work yet was going to make things better. I was still uneasy, even though it's been almost a week.

Being with Logan was bringing me out of that state of mind, but when she went into work.. I was pulled back under again.

It's crazy to think that I can still hear Sandra's voice in my head even after a week. I haven't heard it since that night but I remember laying on the couch and I heard her voice as loud as I could.

It jolted me up and I looked around in a panic. I thought about calling Logan but knew it was useless since there was nobody here.

Being alone gets to me sometimes.

I'm still adjusting.

But I'm getting use to it all.

Logan was at work and I was at her house alone. I didn't want to be here alone, so I texted Kendall and asked her to come get me. I've been telling Kendall almost everything the last few days and I did tell her my feelings for Logan.