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8. impulse

For context in the story, covid is not a thing, Tommy lives in Nottingham and Tubbo lives in London. Your aunt's house is in Northampton which is right in between the two, basically an hour away from both. (check the picture for reference!)

"Tommy-" You can't seem to rely on your ability to form sentences at the moment. The air has completely left your lungs. You hear him chuckle nervously.

"Look I know it's incredibly impulsive and probably not the most rational thing I could have done and I'm sorry if it's-" He stumbles over his words, face burning with embarrassment now.

"N-no Tommy, this is like, the nicest thing anyone's done for me I can't believe you just..." You can barely focus on your own words with your heart beating fiercely in your ears. You run a hand through your hair and place the other on your thigh, which has been bouncing up and down with excitement and nerves.

"Obviously you don't have to come and you should probably talk to your parents-shit! Your parents! Y/n I'm sorry I didn't even think about that." Tommy gasps, eyes wide. Tubbo sat next to the taller boy, eyes wide in shock. You guess he probably didn't know Tommy had done this.

You manage to let out a laugh, the whole logistics of Tommy's actions finally catching up to you both. You had never seen him this flustered. He always seemed so cool and collected, but something must have happened recently that had clearly thrown him into a different attitude. He usually never seemed to be off-put by anything but now he was acting impulsively and nervously. It was almost exhilarating seeing this side of him. Seeing him flustered and shaken, his eyes gleaming with excitement and what you would say to be a hint of nerves if you didn't know better, but this was Tommyinnit. He wasn't scared of anything.

-Tommy's POV-

Holy shit. This is fucking terrifying. I don't know why I did that. I just want to see her. I want to be able to talk to her face to face. I want to hear her laugh next to me, not through my headset. I want to see her face turn red when she's embarrassed in front of me, not through the pixels. I just want to be with her. Like actually with her. All the time. Everyday. She's just a really good friend of mine that's all. Yet I've never felt like this with any of my other friends and that scares me. I don't want to come on too strong but at the same time, I can't risk losing her because I never tried. Why is this so fucking scary right now? Why am I so nervous? Holy shit I hope Tubbo can't hear my heartbeat right now.

Tubbo.

Tubbo.

I still felt bad about yelling at him last night. My conversation with him had taken a turn I never expected it to. He brought up y/n. He was saying what a good friend she was and how happy he was we knew her. He kept talking about her and how great she was and I snapped at him. I don't know what happened, I've never been mad at Tubbo in my life, ever.

"Why don't you just marry her then if you're so obsessed with her!"

I had yelled at Tubbo. Immediately I regretted it and I had apologized quite a bit for yelling at him, but clearly, it hurt. I never meant for it to sound so harsh. We hadn't spoken much to each other much for the rest of that night and the guilt still made my chest heavy. Tubbo meant well, but hearing him talk about her like that bothered me. I don't know why. I couldn't help it, they were just friends and I knew that. Why did it matter what he thought of her? I think she's nice too! Does she think Tubbo's nice? Does she like talking to Tubbo more than me? She probably does. They talk loads more than she and I do. Should I talk to her more? Does she want me to talk to her more?

"Tommy," Tubbo nudged my elbow. "Tommy she just went to go talk to her parents about it, what's going on? Did you seriously buy her a plane ticket?"