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You heard a shaky breath come through the speakers in your phone. Tommy's breathing was more broken than you had ever heard it.

"Wil could you-"

"Yup. Good luck Tommy." Wil said, leaving the call.

"I really really wish I could be there with you right now." Tommy said quietly.

You shut your eyes, leaning your head back, trying to not let him absolutely shatter you.

"T-tommy what happened when-" you said quietly, voice breaking off at the end.

"We got lunch with Fin, Tubbo and I did," Tommy started slowly, "It was going fine, Tubbo and I had talked things out beforehand, but he left to go to the bathroom and uh, Finley made a comment about how I seemed distracted. She said I kept checking my phone like someone was dying, because I kept checking to see if you had texted me. She said she felt like I wasn't really paying attention to her, so she took my phone," Tommy paused, taking a deep breath. He was talking very quickly now but you were hanging onto his every word, trying to find some kind of tell that this was all just some sick joke, that he hadn't actually kissed her.

"She took my phone," He continued, "and she stood up, and held it behind her and I asked her to give it back and that it wasn't funny, because it really really wasn't, but she told me to come and get it, so I reached for it and she grabbed me and she um...kissed me." Tommy finished, completely silent, almost holding his breath, waiting for you to say something. Anything.

You opened your eyes, sick of the image of your boyfriend kissing Finley, his arm wrapped around her back, holding her closer to him. Except, he wasn't holding her. He was grabbing his phone. He hadn't kissed her, she had kissed him. He hadn't kissed her.

Neither of you said anything for a while, you heard nothing but Tommy's nervous breaths, broken slightly, a sign that he had been crying earlier. Your chest hurt.

"Tommy," You said quietly, "I'm sorry I didn't listen."

"No I'm sorry we even had lunch with her. I never should have gone and I never should have reached for my phone and I never-"

"No it's fine, you didn't know she would do that," You said, softening your tone. "I just had a shit day and basically lost all my patience about three hours ago," You admitted, voice heavy with regret.

More silence.

"Fuck I really wish I could hug you right now. I'm so sorry you had to go through today alone." Tommy confessed, his voice raw and broken.

Your heart hurt. So much. You hated being this far from him. You hated that you had gotten so worked up over it. You hated being here, away from everyone you wanted to be with.

"I miss you." You said softly, like a secret promise meant only for him.

"I miss you too." Tommy said, promising the same in return.

"Fuck. I need to apologize to Tubbo." You said, suddenly realizing all of your actions from the past hour.

"He's in the living room if you want me to go get him." Tommy suggested.

"It's fine, I can call him after this."

"Okay, um y/n?"

"Mhm?"

"I know you kind of already did, but do you want to start over and tell me about your day? Like really tell me all about it?" Tommy said.

You smiled, hugging your knees tightly again. You were still sitting at your desk, monitor dark.