I'm not broken (RoyalChaos)

Chapter 3 - Dirty Truth or Dare

Ze's perspective

"Did you know that our origins lie by the stars?"

I shuffled closer to the girl next to me, placing my arm around her. She cuddled up to my chest and continued to look up into the summer night sky. Billions of stars were shining above us. It was truly breathtaking. "That's bullshit, come on", I murmured, gently stroking her arm.

"I like to think it's true", she whispered, "When you die, you don't just die. You don't leave. Your soul travels up into the sky. You return home". I kept silent as we both watched the stars twinkle. Every once in a while, the flashing lights of a plane would disrupt the beauty of the night, but I didn't really mind. I was here, with Mira. I turned my head to look at my girlfriend of exactly one year. I found my happiness with her, I found my reason to keep going. We were the happiest couple in high school, we even thought of going to the same college, even though graduation was still a good year away. I loved her so much. She turned to look at me and placed a kiss on my lips. "I love you, Steven", she said softly, "But there's something you should know". She sat up, so did I. I looked at her, confused. What did she want to tell me? "Listen, I know we're having our one year anniversary and we love eachother and such", she continued. This didn't sound good. "I think I want to go to college somewhere else".

"That doesn't matter", I laughed, relieved, "There are plenty of colleges in California, we'll still see eachother!"

"That's... not... it", she spoke slowly, looking down to her feet, "I want to go to college in New York".

I stared at her. "What? But I thought...". What did I think? That she'd never leave me? That we'd get married here some day?

"Steven, I'm sorry, but you know this has always been my one big dream. To move to New York, go to college there, just to get out of here, away from this town", she sighed, looking away from me, "Even if that means to leave you".

"You're breaking up with me?", I asked quietly, my voice cracking as tears shot up into my eyes, "On our damn anniversary?"

"Look, I want to follow my dreams, not yours. I don't want someone holding me back when I could do what I've always wanted. I'm not breaking up with you, Steven, I'm just letting you know so... So it doesn't hurt so much when it's time for me to actually leave", she replied, looking back at me smiling, grabbing my hands and holding onto them, "I still love you, very much. I just wanted to tell you. Can we go back to watching the stars now?"

What did she think she was doing? I pulled my hands out of her grasp and stood up. "You know you're being a real pain in the ass right now, Mira?", I snapped at her angrily. I had every right to be angry with her. Telling me she was gonna break up soon but expect me to go back to normal like nothing happened? Not with me. I ignored her shocked expression. "You're living in a dream world, don't you see that? You expect everyone to please you and love you but when it comes to what you actually want, you trample around on other people's feelings and then expect them to come back to you on both knees. I'm not gonna be that person, Mira. You might not want to leave me now, but I do. I'm sick of this behavior. And I'm only just noticing... What a fucked up person you actually are. I mean, what is wrong with you, seriously? I'm done here, Mira, we're over". I looked her in the eye, tears were running down her face. Then I stormed off. While I was walking back to my car, I thought back to her sitting there, broken. She didn't even realise what she was doing. Maybe I had been too harsh, just maybe. But she had to finally wake up from her perfect imaginary world.

"Steven, don't do this to me", I heard her sobbing behind me, she was following me to my car. I ignored her and she cried out even louder. I couldn't bear hearing it any longer, it just broke my heart even more. I unlocked my car and sat inside. "Steven, please!", she screamed, her voice cracking inbetween.