I'm not broken (RoyalChaos)

Chapter 12 - Rivalry time

Ze's perspective

"Does it hurt that much?", I asked Chilled as I cautiously disinfected the little glass cuts on his backs. Him being pushed against the wall had caused them to open up again, it certainly wasn't the nicest sight. Luckily for him though, none of the glass splinters had dug in too deep, so he wouldn't have any long-lasting scars. But it still looked like it would hurt for a while. The older guy was sitting on a little stool and I was standing behind him, the disinfectant and cotton balls in my hands.

"It's fine, I've had worse", he insisted, but flinched as the disinfectant touched the last cut on his back. I chuckled, put the liquid away and started wrapping a new bandage around his upper body. I walked around him for that part, as it was easier than doing it from behind. As I made my way to his front, Chilled grabbed me by my hips and pulled me onto his lap. I let out a gasp and nearly let go of the bandages, staring into his eyes with a surprised look on my face.

"W-What are you doing?", I stuttered. Our faces were embarrassingly close to eachother, and even though we were in a relationship, it still made me slightly uncomfortable. I still wasn't used to being so physically close to another person, no matter how much I loved him.

"Just my way of saying 'thank you'", Chilled murmured and placed his lips onto mine. I hesitated. Something just seemed off about this. I didn't know what, but I didn't feel completely alright with it. Chilled noticed my distance and backed out of the kiss to look at me. "Ze? Is everything okay?", he asked, worry flowing beside his words.

I shook my head, he wouldn't understand. This was a weird feeling I had and he'd probably stamp it off as mere nervousness. "I... I just don't want to keep Smarty and Galm waiting for too long", I weaseled my way out of it and quickly got up on my feet again, finishing up his bandages. He didn't reply, just looked down at the ground. As I pinned the bandages together he got up without saying another word and walked out of the bathroom. Watching him leave me like that I remembered a song I had heard a while ago.

You, you're gonna break my heart. You're gonna tear it apart. No matter what you do, I'll still be there for you. And when you call my name, I won't be far away. No matter where you go, you'll never be alone.

Just remembering those lyrics made my heart ache. It was so true though. Whatever Anthony did to make me upset, I eventually came back to him. No matter how much he hurt me with some of the things he said to me, I'd still forgive him and let him make me take the blame. It hurt, sure, but I didn't want to lose him. Not like I lost Mira. I had been so shaped by that incident that I couldn't bear losing someone in my life again. I sighed deeply and tidied up the bathroom, then joined Anthony, Smarty and Galm in the living room. Smarty was sitting on Galm's lap in one of the two armchairs, whilst Chilled was on the couch, patting his hand on the empty place next to him, indicating me to sit down there. I didn't look at him as I walked over to sit in the second armchair. I felt the three men stare at me, but I ignored it.

Smarty cleared his throat after an awkward moment of silence. "We... We were just deciding on a movie to watch", he informed me and I glanced at him, he looked slightly worried, "Do you have any recommendations? Otherwise we'd watch 'Inception'".

I gave him a quick smile. "No, that's fine with me", I replied and watched the black-haired guy insert the disc and return to Galm. I caught Anthony's eye, he was clearly upset with me. He didn't have the right to be, he was the one who just walked away from me. As the movie began he got up and came closer.

"Can we talk real quick?", he whispered, trying not to disturb the other two, "In the bedroom? Please?". I rolled my eyes and gave in, following him into our shared bedroom. The Italian sat down on the corner of our bed. "Ze... You can really tell me if something's wrong", he began and wanted to continue, but stopped and looked up at me.