Phanfiction - Wonderboy

Part 3 - Trying to kiss Phil

Dan's POV

The next few days Phil and I were together every day. We were working on our school project and just casually hanging out. Even though we didn't do much together, I couldn't help but want to hug him, kiss him, and tell him how I felt. It was so weird. Why am I attracted to him? He's a guy! And I'm straight. And so is he. At least I think he is?  

We were at Phil's house, and I lay on his bed, looking up at the ceiling, just thinking. Phil was reading something on his computer, when he turned around and looked at me.

"What are you thinking?" he said, with a crooked smile on his face.

I woke up from my thoughts and looked at Phil.

"Nothing" I said, with a big, unexpected smile on my face.

"Well ok then, I'm done with the report to our project. What should we do now?" Phil asked.

"I don't know, we could... Play videogames?" I asked. 

"What do you want to play. I have a box full of games." Phil said and started searching in his wardrobe.

"Nerd!" I said joking.

Phil punched my shoulder, which made my heart skip a beat, just because he touched me.

Phil suddenly stood up.

"Oh god, I forgot a have to pick up my little brother from football practice."

"Oh, ok." I said and took my bag over my shoulder.

"You can just stay here if you want to, it'll only take 15 minutes, and then I'll be right back." he said.

"Uhm, ok, sure, I'll just wait then." I said and smiled.

Phil smiled back and then ran out of the door, and seconds later I could hear the door slam.

I looked around in Phil's bedroom, and noticed the computer was on. He told me about a map where he kept all his videos. Without thinking it through, I sat down on the chair and searched on his computer for that map, just because I wanted to see Phil in action. I found a map that was called "AmazingPhil", and remembered him mentioning that name once. In the map there was a bunch of videos. One of the videos was called "Alarm." and I started to watch it. He was sitting with Lion, he's precious little teddy, on his shoulder, and talking about a rollercoaster. And something about a girl, recognizing him in the mall. I really had no idea he was a famous youtuber. I scrolled down the videos, to see if there was any interesting titles to the videos and something caught my eye. There was a video called "Dan". My heart stood still. But then I thought Loads of people are called Dan, it could be any Dan. Still I checked the video.

"So... I've met this boy. His name is Dan, he's in my class. I've never looked forward to moving, but him being so friendly made it all alot easier. He only lives to houses away from me. We've become great friends. We hang out pretty much every day. Mostly because of the school project. But, it's strange. It feels like... I don't know. I think I like him. More than a friend. I think about him all the time, and I just love being around him. And just a normal touch from him can make me want to dance and sing. Well, that would've been very strange if I did that. Anyway, this is just a quick reminder to myself. Control yourself! Nothing will ever happen. Do I want anything to happen? I think so. But I'm so confused. I don't know what is going on in my head. I've always been a strange kid. But this is just out of my lead in strangeness! Oh god..."

I couldn't help but smile. He felt the same as I did! Oh my god! I wanted to scream in joy! I heard the door open downstairs and I quickly closed the map and the video and sat on the bed. Phil came in right after.

"Was it boring without me?" Phil said jokingly.

"Not at all!" I answered.

He gave me a fake, irritated look and laughed.

"What have you been doing?" he asked.

"Not much, just... Reading." I lied.

"Allright, should we play? Do you like sonic?" he asked holding the game up.

"Are you kidding, I love it!" I said.

And then we started playing.

We had been playing for 10 minutes, but I couldn't stop thinking about the video. Phil looked so concentrated at the game. He probably was, but I couldn't be at all. I just wanted to hold Phil's hand. His hand lay on his thigh. Without thinking things through, I placed my hand on top of Phil's. He gasped and kept looking at the screen. I'd expected him to have run away by now, but he just sat still. I stroked his hand. He was shaking, but I kept calm. He finally opened his hand, and suddenly we were holding hands. I was looking at our hands, when I saw Phil looking at me. I slowly wrapped my arms around Phil's waist, and pulled him a bit closer. I was boiling inside, only because I was blushing the whole time. A relieve went through me when he wrapped his arms around me too. Our heads were about 10 centimeters from each other. I was just about to kiss him when suddenly he pulled away from me, and the heat inside my body disappeared.

"Damn, I... I can't do it, Dan." Phil said looking more confused than ever. He looked at the ground. It felt like my heart was broken into a million tiny pieces that all cut into my body. I grabbed my bag and looked at Phil, who was still looking at the ground.

"I'm sorry." I said and left Phil's house as fast as I could.

When I walked outside, it was raining, but it just helped, because no one was supposed to see the tears on my cheeks.