The amour of love- elmax story

chapter 8

"Max," a fait yet ear piercing voice echoed in the back of maxes head. 

"is she waking up?" a different voice ask, this one softer and more comforting,

"no, not yet. but she's stirring" .

As max slowly opened her eyes, the warm sun stroking her face, she started to adjust to the brightness of, where ever she was. she could hear faint whispering to her left and as she started to wiggle her fingers and toes to wake them up, the sound of bare feet creeping across the carpet got louder until she was greeted by a freckled covered face. Short blondie, brownie hair. and a obnoxious green vest with a "ASK ME" pin attached to the left side.

"Hey max," Robin spoke, her voice less croaky then usually, it was soft and low.

"hi," max replied under her breath, to be honest max was surprised Robin heard her say it. 

"How you felling?"  she ask sitting on the foot of the bed gentilly ensuring that she didn't sit on maxes feet. 

max though about my answer before she even tried to form a full sentence, let alone one that made sense. her head hurt, she thought and not just from the bright light piercing into her eyes, or the fact she'd just woke up. there was this throbbing and everything was foggy. max was surprised she remember her own name. it felt like all the information max needed to remember what happened to her was in her head, but it was jumbled up like a puzzle and she had to try and figure out which piece went wear. but anyway back to robins question. 

"fine," max said blankly, what was that! she gave herself a mental slap, "fine" that all i got!

"Anything else?" Robin ask obviously knowing something max didn't or at least didn't remember.

"no?" the ginger said in a completely oblivious way.

"do you remember what happened?" she ask cautiously placing her hand on maxes shin, trying to comfort her, but honestly it made maxes skin crawl. i mean she liked robin, but i think she just needs to work on reading social queue.

" no," max once again said dryly.

"nothing!" she said, almost trying to imply max was lying.  

"NO!"  max said, god can't she just get the message max thought! i dont remember and frankly , i dont want to! so to try and get the message sent as clearly as i could max turned onto her side, facing the wall, and as she did Robins hand slowly slipped off maxes leg.

max heard her sigh, not a annoyed sigh a sad one. Leave it to me to keep pushing everyone away max thought! why am i such a dick sometime. i just. i dont know why i can't just open up to people, let them in, let them help me. cause god knows i need it.

Monday 7:57 am

Robin offered to give me a ride to school, but honestly i wasn't really on speaking term with robin. or anyone for that matter. I'd shut everyone out, typical me thought i guess. so to avoid a very awkward drive to school , i told robin that i was going to skateboard, and meet up with some friends, which was a stupid lie. cause uno i dont have any friends, considering  Lucas is toxic for me and if i dont hang out with Lucas that rules out dustine considering there always together. i done hang out with mike cause he's a complete shit head. And well will hangs out with el and i dont quite remember why but me and el aren't speaking. but i think we can agree that, that's properly my fault considering i seem to be a friendship destroyer. call me the Godzilla of relationships. I stomp on them until they die.

i got to school, i didn't wanna go in. i stood at the front door, swarming with people. i tried to breath thinking that would help me calm down. And it work! for all of 5 seconds, if that. i saw her. she was wearing big blue denim jeans, rolled up at the bottom and synched at the waist. with the blue shirt that had purple splodges on it. she had her hair down, and it was all messed up like she'd not even brushed it. Yet it look effortlessly perfect no matter how the wind hit it. 

my heart sunk, knowing that i couldn't go and talk to her, admire her just be around her. Its like in life, nothing makes you happy. no matter what you do, who you see you always fell so alone. so numb. Like your always fighting to stay above water. But there's that one person, that one person who can make you smile, a real smile. they keep your head above water. when your with them you feel safe. you feel like your finally home.

El. she was my person.

And i was just sitting by watching her slip away. It finally click. i wasn't good at keeping people around me. but once i push people away, i dont fight to get them back. BUT NO MORE. i needed to start fighting for this one person. my person.

i flicked my board up into my hand, took a deep breath and made my way into school. i headed to els locker and wrote a note. cheesy i know, but  couldn't came face to face with her, not yet. Anyway i slipped the note into her locker and slipped back out of school laid down my board and slammed my foot onto the concrete. i propelled down the street, the wind running its hands through my hair, i loved the feeling of rolling down the street, the fear of your wheels hitting a rock sending you flying,  but you dont care, because in that moment your free. 

skateboarding was best in California thought. The streets in front of the beach were the best. they were meant for cyclists but were overrun with skater, the paths were smooth and flowing. but the best bit was the noise of the sand that had escaped onto the path, being crush under my wheels. 

soooooo. I'm so grateful for over 100 read! seriously i have always love to write stories. But i never thought that my stories would actually be read and maybe? enjoyed by other people. so for that I'm so so grateful. but anyways i love this chapter, kind of, i mean its better than chapter 7 so. but expect more elmax to come. Love your fellow homosexual 

Izzie.