Deaf love (Complete)

Nightmares

Bold: sign language
Italics: phone
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This is Defonte's third nightmare for this week. Im getting worried, he's very distant with me. Only time we are together is when we are having sex or Nia makes us watch a movie with her, other than that he would be in his man cave or at the base.
Is it me? Does he love me or is he tired of me? I know I'm not perfect nor am I skinny.
I just want my Defonte back. The Defonte that took me out on a date and the loving father that would do anything for his daughter? I just want him back with us.
I wipe my tears and walked down to his man cave. He was staring at the T.V. while changing channels. I tap him softly on the shoulders, he looked up at me.
Seeing his face made my insides hurt. Defonte looks so lifeless in the eyes.
'I need to talk to you' I said. He nod and set the remote down 'Okay, go ahead'
I took a deep breath 'Why are you being distant with us?'
He shruggs 'I just need time to myself, that's all.'
I rolled my eyes 'It's been a month Defonte. Ever since the group therapy, you've been shutting us out. Your mom been calling you, she has been worry sick. Khalil is worried about you, he had to call me to see if your okay. Baby tell me what's wrong'
He shook his head 'It's nothing.' I rolled my eyes 'It's more than nothing. Im trying to help Defonte and you're pushing me away. Baby please just tell me.'
He stood up infront of me 'Tira just drop it.'
He walked past me, but I made a mistake by grabbing his arm. He pinned me to the wall by my shoulders. His eyes was red and had killer written all over his face.
Tears slide down my face. Defonte's face soften, he let go of my shoulders and sat on arm of the couch with his head in his hands. I wipe my tears and with caution, I walk to Defonte. The way his shoulders was moving infers that he was crying.
I hestitated by touching his back, he flinched at first but relaxed. I pulled him into a hug, he wrapped his arms around my waist.
We was like this for at least an hour before Nia came downstairs. 'Daddy, what's wrong?' She asked. I rub Defonte's back 'Your father is not really feeling well. Did you need anything?'
'Yes, I wanted to ask if we can go to the movies tomorrow.'
I nod 'Okay.'
She smiled and walked to her father. Defonte still had his head on my stomach while looking down at Nia. 'Daddy what's wrong?' She ask.
He removed his arms from around me 'Daddy is just tired honey.'
'How come you won't go to sleep?'
'Because daddy doesn't take naps' I said. She smiled up at me 'Maybe daddy should'
She took his hand and made him stand to his feet. I turned off the T.V. And followed the both of them upstairs to Defonte's room.
The whole time Nia was moving the covers for him to lay under, Defonte seemed happy. 'Goodnight Daddy'
Defonte laid under the covers and Nia tucked him in before kissing his cheek. he smiled 'Good night baby girl'
'If you need me, I will be in my room watching T.V.' With that she left us alone and went into her room. Defonte got out of bed and stripped down to his boxers before walking up to me 'I can't sleep without you by my side' he grabbed my hand and lead me to the bed.
He took off my shirt and pants, before he can take anything else off I put my hand on his chest. 'Tell me what's going on'
He removed his fingers from my panties 'I have nightmares about the incident in Iraq.'
'How long has this been going on?'
'Since I came back' my eyes widen. 'For 2 months. You been suffering with this for 2 months? How come you didn't tell me this baby?'
He rubbed his face with his left hand before answering my question with a shrugg. I pinch the bridge of my nose and sighed while shaking my head.
'We are supposed to communicate. That's what this relationship is mainly about. And you, keeping a secret that can hurt you for this long is not helping. Defonte I love you and I care about you, if you leave or get hurt I will be devastated.'
'I won't leave you. Its just a minor thing, mostly every soldier that came back has it baby, stop worrying.'
My brows creased 'Stop worrying? Are you fucking kidding me?' I shook my head 'You haven't talked to me for weeks and you hardly sleep. Why the fuck wouldn't I stop worrying? For the past week you got me up here by myself in the bed thinking if you got tired of me and if your cheating on me with some other girl that's the opposite from me.'
He wiped my tears that escaped my eyes 'I will never in my life cheat on you. You and Nia are the world to me, I would never get tired of you. I need you in my life, it may seem like I don't but I do. The reason why i don't sleep in the bed because I'm scared that I will wake up in the middle of the night and kill you. I have nightmares that make me think about that; hurting everybody close to my heart. That's why I push everybody away. Baby I'm sorry that I have you worried, I'll get help, I'll go to the group therapies. Just stop worrying, okay.'
I slightly smile 'Defonte, I worry about you every single day. Even when there's nothing to worry about, I still worry. I don't want to lose you. I love you so much Defonte and I will do anything for you.' I caress his cheek.
He smiled 'I love you too baby'
He kissed my lips so softly.
This is the Defonte I have been waiting for at the airport. This is the Defonte that I plan on spending my future and leaving my past with. This is the Defonte I would die for without second thoughts.....
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