Desire Of The Soul

Chapter 27

{I'm back, just have a lot going on. Thanks for putting up with Bree's writing. I think shes better than me though. Enjoy}

"Marissa Jareau, I'm sorry but I have to be the one to inform you this you've had a miscarriage. I'll give you some time." The doctor spoke as the words hit me like a ton of bricks.

"Oh my god Spencer." I burst out. I wasn't sure if I was going to cry or not.

"Its okay. That just means you and I can create a child." He blushes then cringes. "To soon sorry it kinda slipped." I laugh

"Its okay, I'd rather it be yours and not some other guys." I sigh. We get up to leave. I left work earlier making all the students complain. I wanted to go home and sleep.

"I want to go to your apartment and sleep."

"Its more our apartment since you practically live there." He chuckles a bit.

"Whatever just take me there." I sigh. We drive back to the apartment. I curl into a ball on the bed and watched random movies on the movie channel.

"Babe I have to go to the bau. They need my brains."

"Okay I'll be here." He nods sadly.

Spencer

I hated seeing her so sad, she was almost lifeless. Dead even. I drove as fast as the speed limit would allow. I parked the car and ran inside.

"Hey kid what's wrong?" Morgan asks as I pass him.

"Marissa had a miscarriage. She's laying on the couch all sad like." He pats my back and I contuine towards JJ and Emily.

"Hey Spence, everything okay?"

"Marissa needs a mom or mother figure. I don't think she cope with this on her own." I breathless spit out.

A

"What's wrong?" JJ and Emily say at the same time.

"Marissa had a doctors appointment today and she had me go only what we found out wasn't good and I think even if she didn't want it, it still was a part of her."

"Oh my god she didn't." JJ gasps.

"She had a miscarriage didn't she?" Emily asks and I nod solemnly.

"I just want someone who isn't a guy to be there all the time." They nod.

"We don't have any cases so we'll go over there in a few. Who else knows?" JJ says sighing.

"Besides me and you two. Only Morgan."

"Go tell the others so they don't be asses about it." Emily nods towards her boyfriend and the rest of our team. I nod and watch as they leave the buliding.

"Hey guys." I smile as nicely as I can.

"Kid I'm a proflier I know when somethings up so spill it." Hotch jumps to the point.

"Marissa had a miscarriage so don't say anything, it may not have been her choice to get pregnant, but it was still a part of her and I hate seeing her so sad and depressed." I spill out as fast as I can without stumbling over words. They nod and agree to keep their mouths shut. I drove back to our apartment and signed when I heard crying from inside the door.

Jen: Is everything okay in there?

Spence: She's heartbroken and it makes me sad. I had to step out of the room so I could regather myself. Marissa's miscarriage plus his death.

Jen: Who's death?

Spence: I'm going to tell the whole team later, come inside. She needs you.

I unlock the door and see Emily holding Marissa in the middle of the kitchen floor -where I'm guessing she broken down- JJ standing wearily in the corner.

"Marissa." I speak to her as I step into the kitchen. She jumps up and wipes her face.

"Um Spencer. You're back early." She smiles wearily.

"You don't have to be strong all the time. I know you're hurting, you can't hide from me I'm a profiler." I sigh and wrap my arms around her.

(A/N) This is just a filler chapter for the next big one I'm writing. If you know what I'm planning if you've way he'd the lateset episodes don't spoil it. Just read. I'm updating now sorry for the wait hope you enjoy.