Desire Of The Soul

Chapter 23

Today was the day I would be going back to the building or bau and I was really scared. My hair wasn't fading and I looked completely different but the people who were my family didn't care that I look normal to others. As long as I was true to myself it was fine. I should me getting out of bed but I dreaded the day ahead. I stared at the ceiling of the guest bedroom turned into a teenage girls bedroom of Aunt Jennifer's house. The knob turned and a small boy appears at the end of my bed.

"Marisy, come one mommy made pancakes with blyrverrys." I giggle at his still faluire to pronoce words he was almost 2. I smile and let him drag me to the kitchen. I smile at Aunt Jen and then sit down with Henry. He eats really fast. I eat but then disappear to go get dressed.

"Henry you shouldn't have eaten that fast."I hear as the sound of throw up filled the small house. I quickly found work appropriate clothing sorta in the bottom of my suitcase. Ripped skinny jeans, a red flannel with a black tank top underneath it. I turned to the mirror and looked at my colored hair. I slide on my shoes and ran outside down to the department store. I grabbed what I needed and ran back up stairs.

"Almost a half hour till we leave." She announces but I only needed 10 minutes and 5 with a blow dryer. I did what I needed to do then looked at my hair in the mirror. It looked nice. The red color made my blue eyes pop. I laced up my red converse and turned to my hair. I plugged in my curling iron and curled all of the bottoms and made little waves. Soon there was a knock.

"Are you ready?" Aunt Jen asked. I grabbed my bag and threw the door open. "You look wonderful and teenagerish glad to see you finally are going to stop wearing grown up clothes, I wish for you to be a normal teenager to take pot and whatever."

"Aunt Jen you don't take pot and I'd never do that." She smiles and we walk down the stairs where Will was with Henry.

"There are my two girls, have a good day at work. I'm glad to have you back Marissa. I like your hair." He says pushing us out the door. I tap along to the song in my head as we pull up. I fidget with the hem of my flannel. I don't see anyone which is good. I sigh pulling my bag onto my shoulder before opening the door. I fix my curls before running in behind Aunt Jen.

"We have to do some follow up reports and that's it for today. You can listen to your music if you'd like. I'm not sure how the others will react to your hair but its cute. I'm guess you went to the department store this morning." I nod shyly.

"I feel like this is my first day all over again." I mutter and Aunt Jen laughs as the elevator doors open and we are at the beau of investigation (our floor). I don't see a lot of people in there. I sigh and grip the strap of my bag. Aunt Jen pulls the door open and I step through. I see the others no where to be found. I just go over and sit at my desk which is a mess. I start to straighten it. Someone was looking for something. On the computer there was a taped not.
Marissa
Sorry I messed up your desk. I was looking for your recent file and I found it.
Dr. Reid.

I crumbled the note and tossed it into the garbage. I put in my earphones and sit back in my chair. The chair facing the wall instead of the door.

"Boo!" A voice said gripping my shoulder. I throw my arm back elbow the voice and turn around.

"Fuck off." I mutter.

"Marissa language." Aunt Jen calls.

"How do you even hear me?" I call back to her.

"I know you honey." I sigh, knowing she was right. I look up at the person seeing it was Morgan.

"Do not do that again or I will make you regret it Derek."

"I suggest you don't mess with the girl." Emily adds to him. I see Spencer standing a distance from me.

"I guess her period came early." I stand up yanking my earphones out and placing my phone on the table. I glare at him before taking his arm and twisting it bringing it to his chest.

"Do. Not. Do. That. Again. Or. I will cut off your balls and shove them so far down your throat your baby will come out with a third arm." I breath letting go of his arm.

"Okay enough. Marissa sit down. Derek go to your desk." Spencer speaks up. I sigh in defeat and sit down placing my earphones and putting on Falling In Reverse I'm not a vampire and ignoring the world. It changes to Disconnected (if you know what band sings and can name it I will love you forever) I see Spencer sitting on the edge of my desk tapping his fingers against it. I look up and flash a small smile. I pause my music and take my earphones out.

"How may I help you Dr. Reid?" I ask serious.

"Marissa, don't play games with me. We both know I'm to smart not to see through it. What's with your hair and your clothes?"

"Look Reid. I kinda outgrew the little girl dress and skirts. I'm dressing like a normal girl even if I'm never going to be normal. I like to change my hair I always have and I don't care if you don't like it because its my hair and my clothes. I did a lot of searching in the time I ran away and I found out that the whole act of acting like I could do this job or that I was smart enough the reality kicked in when I had to go get a real job. And compared to a lot you I'm nothing." I sigh and get up.

"Follow me." He shortly says walking away. I follow him to an empty conference room. He pushes the door shut and locks it.

"I don't care what happened in DC but what's with us, you're acting as if you don't love me or something. I can't read you." He sighs.

"I'm sorry. I'm not capable of doing this job anymore." I say and he glares at me. I close my eyes and take a breath then a pair of lips crash onto mine. They were soft, sweet and I missed them. This kiss grows passionate and sweet for a while. I pull away for a breather and stare at him.

"You can do this job. I believe in you and so does everyone on this team. We need you for the things I can't do Marissa. I love you and I'm sorry I'm not the best boyfriend in the world." I stop his sentence short by kissing him again.

"I missed you." I mumble pressing my lips against his again.

"I missed you too."

"Oh Marissa and Spencer K-I-S-S-I-N-G !" Derek yells unlocking the door to see me leaning against Spencer.

"You two okay?" Emily asks from behind Hotch.

"Yeah we're fine, finally. So whatca need me to do?" I ask walking out the door flipping my hair over my shoulder.

"Actually I want you to do something different. You are to go be a teenager with Reid. You two are always here and are never getting a break. So I'm ordering you to leave and give all of us a break. Go drink or something I don't care and don't come in tomorrow please either of you." Hotch says handing a pair of keys to Spencer. I look between Aunt Jen and Hotch.

"Go for it." Aunt Jen says handing me my bag and shoving me towards the door. I see Spencer get his bag and follow me. Oince outside the building I just sit in the car awkwardly.

"We were told to be teenagers but neither of us know how." I sigh.

"We could always go back go my apartment and watch a movie." He suggests.

"That sounds perfect." He smiles and starts the car. I hum to a sing on that radio.