Yumi POV
Nandito ako sa loob ng classroom namin. Kasama ko si Lance.
Yup hindi kami magkaklase, pero pwede naman siya pumasok loob ng classroom namin since wala naman na yung mga kaklase ko.
Hinihintay namin si Reika dito upang sabay sabay kami umuwi.
"Lance" tawag pansin ko sa kanya
Lumingon ito sa akin.
Iniabot ko sa kanya yung gitara na nakita ko sa loob ng cabinet kanina.
"Ano gagawin ko dito?" nagtatakang tanong niya
"Play it" simpleng sabi ko
AN: Try to play this song while reading :)
He started playing it habang ako lumapit sa bintana at tumanaw sa labas.
"I know you've got the best intentions" I started singing
He stopped, pero wala ako pakialam
"Just trying to find the words to say" I continued
"I promise I already learned my lesson" I closed my eyes at pinakiramdaman ang hangin
"But right now, I want to be not okay" I smiled sadly
"I'm so tired, sitting here waiting. If I here one more "Just be patient, It's always gonna stay the same" I opened my eyes
"So, Let me just give up" humarap ako sa kinaroroonan ni Lance
Gulat ang nakita ko sa mukha niya.
I smiled sadly
"So, Let me just let go" I smiled again
"If this isn't good for me, well I don't wanna know" tumalikod ulit ako at tumarap sa bintana
"Let me just stop trying, Let me just stop fighting
I don't want your good advice or reasons why I'm alright" my tears started falling
"You don't know what it's like" I let my tears falling.
Nagulat ako ng may biglang humila sa akin.
"Shhhh, It's gonna be okay" Si Lance ulit
Bakit ba tuwing umiiyak ako lagi syang sumusulpot..
"C-can't s-stop t-these feet from s-sinking" I continued
Yinakap nya lang ako mahigpit
"A-and s-starting to s-show on me" garalgal na boses ko
"Shhhh stop it Yumi" pagpapahinto nito sa akin
But I didn't listen
"Y-you're s-staring w-while I-I'm b-blinking
B-but j-just d-don't t-tell m-me w-what y-you s-see" umiiyak ko pa ding kanta
"Shhhh Yumi please stop it" sabi ni Lance at inalis ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin
Pinunasan nya yung mga luha sa mata ko..
"Yumi listen.." sabi nya
Pinunasan ko yung luha sa mga mata ko at kinalma ko yung sarili ko..
"Yumi? Lance?" napalingon ako sa may pintuan
Nakatayo doon si Reika..
Lumapit siya sa akin
"Hey, What's wrong?" nag-aalalang tanong niya
"W-wala" I said and smiled at her
"Stop smiling Yumi at hindi pwedeng wala lang yan, umiiyak ka eh" mahabang sabi niya
"I really okay" I assured her
"Sige, hayaan muna kita pero make sure na sasabihin mo din sa akin kung ano man yan" Reika
I looked at Lance..
Tumango siya
"I promise" Nakangiti kong sabi kay Reika
"Okay na kayo? Pwede na ba tayo umuwi?" sabi n Lance
Kinuha ko gamit ko at saka umalis na kami
"Kain muna tayo ng ice cream bago umuwi?" aya ni Reika
"Sige" sabi ko
Tumango lamang si Lance..
"Yey It's ice cream time!" sabi ni Reika
Pshhh..
Lumilitaw na naman yung pagka childish niya.
I looked at Lance, nakatingin siya sa akin
"Bakit?" I mouthed at him
"Wala lang, just wondering if-"
Pinutol ko yung sasabihin sana niya
"Wala yun!" sabi
"Bakit and defensive mo?"
"Tse! ewan ko sa sayo" sabi ko
Nauna na akong naglakad at iniwan ko sya..
I smiled secretly......
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It's Okay not to Be Okay (UNEDITED)
Teen FictionHave you ever smiled at the people around you just to hide your feelings? Have you ever cried secretly, no one knows? Have you ever made your own decision, or did someone else make the decision for yourself? Have you ever been confined to your own p...
