Broken Veins *trigger warning*

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I'm going to make a trailer of this story a little bit later. :)

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[Ashtons POV]

I looked in the mirror and cried. I can't be happy. I can't be loved. I can't be me.

I cut my stomach.

No happiness here.

I'm just a freak.

I say as tears start pouring out my eyes.

"Fuck myself!!" I scream.

I feel someone touch my cheek and wipe my tear away.

"Your life is too important DO NOT ever say that." He says.

I cover my penis.

I turn around.

It's Luke.

"I..I..I just hate..my my my self...I just...I can't... Be....happy." I cry.

"Here come and let's take a nice bath okay?"Luke rubs my back.

"I don't know I.." I say.

"Come on." He smiles.

We runs the water.

I sit my blade down.

A tear rolls down his face.

"What's wrong?" I say.

"I need you to stay strong." He says.

"I will I try it's hard when no one likes you and the people you love desperately want you dead."I cry.

He puts bubbles in the bath.

"You can get in now." He says.

I climb in and smile.

"I love you." He says.

"You know you're never alone. And I don't want you dead. I want you here. Here with me. I want you alive in my arms. While we dance and sing and laugh. I wanna see you get married to me. I wanna see you happy. I wanna see you make it to the age 40 at least although you're scars may still be there. I know you will and can make it cause your Ashton. Ashton my my my my. Love." Luke says as tears stream down his face.

"I love you too."I  say.

I see the water turn reddish.

"Hey!! Are you bleeding!!" He screams.

"No." I calmly say.

I make an expression on my face as if nothing ever happened. Kind of like if I didn't give a shit about the water. Like I don't give a shit about my life.

"I was hoping we could go out for a day. Just you and me. Nothing but the world and us." Luke says as he takes a rag and soaks it in water and puts it on my back.

"No I don't wanna be outside. I wanna be with you. We can go out and get some food then stay home.  Get cozy watch tv snuggle and lock the world outside. Because that's what love is." I say.

"My gosh that sounds perfect." Luke says with a smile.

He puts the rag on my back and cleans me. I stare at his blue ocean eyes. And realize everything I love about him.The way that the lines around the pupil, are greenish.the way his beautiful blonde hair all combine to make a perfect shape on his head. The way that his skin glows when ever someone walks into the room. and the lipbite he does after he smiles. Or the fact that he's so sweet to everyone. And his corny jokes that no one gets or laughs at or understands but still isn't funny.

The fact that when ever he wears a beanie he looks like a breadstick. Or that he looks and acts like a penguin but looks like he can pick a whole car with a finger. And that he loves spongebob and Starbucks way more than needed.

"WHAT!!!" He screams.

"Oh um... In my mind I was telling me about all the things I love about you."

He blushes and smiles then lip bites. His normal routine.

"I love you too Ashton." He keeps washing me and I stare into his beautiful eyes again.