Broken Veins *trigger warning*

.4

That's a picture of Alex he's so cute. (It's a random tumblr boy)

[Alex's POV]

I feel bad for ash. He doesn't deserve this.

We walked to his house and cryed on my shoulder.

"Aww daddy ash, I love you." I try to cheer him up but of course he's not gonna be happy.

"Why does everyone hate?"

"EVERYONE? Bish I love you and you know I do."

"Aww thanks. But I want more love."

He stands up.

"I want someone to actually care about me. And my life. I want more people."

"Well your family." I suggest.

"I want more!!" He says.

[Ashtons POV]

Ugg I can't believe I'm telling him this.

"ASHTON?!?!" my mom screams.

"I'll be right back babe."

I close the door and walk down stairs.

"Yes?" I say.

"Sit down."

My mom and my step dad pull up a chair.

"Listen. Are you okay?" My step dad Eric says.

"Yes Eric." I say.

"Well we've gotten worried about you." He says.

"You seemed depressed " mama says.

"I'm always depreesed." I'm not gonna lie.

"Why?" They say.

"Because I'm getting bullied and everything is just evil. It's like the world loves to push me down and shatter me to pieces."

"Oh." Eric says.

"Can I ask why is your gray jacket full of blood?" Mama says.

"Did you kill someone?" Eric says.

"No."

"Can I see your arm?" Mama says.

"No."

"You don't tell me no." She says.

"I just did."

"Hey!" Eric grabs my arm.

"Don't fucking touch me."

---------------31 days left in the year--

(Last day of school in 2014)

"I gonna miss you all." I say.

"Stay strong."

"Thx ash." They say to me.

"Are you coming to my house?" I ask Alex.

"No." He says.

"I can't babe. My mom's sick."

"Okay just asking I love you." I say.

"I love you too."

"Bye." I say.

He waves.

I walked home and knocked on the door.

My mom opened it.

"Hey." She says.

Someone grabs me.

"Ow!!!" I scream "let go! Let go!!!"

"No!!" Eric says.

I can't believe he's doing this.

He hand cuffs me to the pole on the wall.

"Let go!!!!" I kick and scream.

"What the hell?!?!"

"What are these?" My mom says.

She opens my cut box.

And opens my Cuttingder.

"What is this?!?!?" She Cries.

"It's not mine." I lie.

Eric pulls up my jacket sleeve.

"YOU FUCKING LIAR!" He screams.

He kicks my stomach.

"YOU FREAK!!!" My step dad screams.

"STOP!!" My mom screams.

"We are taking you to Suicidal Savers. End of conversation." She says.

He unlocks my cuffs.

I run upstairs.

"I hate my life!!!" I scream.

I take a blade and in a moment of weakness I cut.

It feels so good.

It's like porn to me.

I alway hide a blade in my back pack.

-----tomorrow-----

"Ashton! Wake up." Mama Irwin says.

I get dressed and run downstairs.

Ugh Saturday.

I lift up my shirt and see he bruise.

I hate everything.

"Where going to see. Suicidal Savers today." Mama says

" I don't want to." I say.

"Well you are fucking going to." Eric says.

"I don't like you." I say.

"I don't give a Fuck."

My brother comes downstairs.

"Hi Ashton." He says

"Hi Harry." I smile.

"Lets go." Mama says.

"Now?" I ask.

"It's 2:45 pm yes."

Damn I woke up late.

I grab my jacket and we leave.

The car is silent.

"You cut last night?"

"No."

"Good."

We make it to this big building.

The door says, " Suicidal Savers Club."

I don't wanna do this.

We walk inside and I see this girl crying.

She runs outside and a man followers here.

"Jessie!"He says.

"Hi." He smiles.

"Hi."I smile back.

He's kinda cute.

"I'm Luke." He holds his my hand.

" I'm Ashton." I shake his hand.

And he runs outside and I smile.