𝐃𝐢𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐎𝐟 𝐀 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞

SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 8

What does a sudden change of attitude indicate?

I think it indicates an illness or a decrease in brain cells and honestly, I think my brain cells are decreasing.

My attitude is changing! It is really terrifying me just thinking about it.

Today my responses kept surprising me. Responses, what responses? You may ask.

Well, I know one thing is factual: A bunch of blank pages can not ask such a question, but I will imagine this diary has a mouth to ask me questions.

So back to my story.

I was minding my own business. You know, just flipping some pages of some of my favorite books when I behold...

Wait for it...

A text from Jaden.

It was a moment of worry for me when I got that annoying vibration sound from my phone.

At that moment, I wondered who texted me and surprisingly, I saw Jaden's name on the screen.

Realizing that it was Jaden, my body turned against me. My heart skipped --- it skipped twice.

My response shocked me. I don't think it is normal for my heart to skip twice especially for something as petty as a text from Jaden.

If it wasn't for how curious I was, I would not have responded. At that point, I would never allow myself to be that dead cat that died from curiosity.

So I opened the text, only to see a 'hi'. Yeah just like that, no emojis whatsoever.

Who sends a 'hi' without any emoji? I know I don't have a social life and whatever, but seriously no emoji.

Me being the decent person that I am, I replied with a hi and this time with emojis.

Then he asks me how I am doing.

On any other day, I would brush off anyone who tried to sustain a conversation with me but surprisingly my body went on sweet mode.

My fingers started to have a mind of their own and typing things even my eyes were surprised to see.

I was literally able to sustain the conversation to the point where I got to know a little more about him.

Who would have thought that he is nineteen? He looks too young for his age. Like seriously, if anyone looks at him; he looks like a kid. I told him that and then he sent me a bunch of laughing emojis. I think those were the only emojis he sent me the whole time we spoke.

Well, I ended it by mentioning to him that I needed to sleep when in an actual sense I was simply wishing to record what happened in my diary.

I thought it was a necessary detail mainly because I never actually meaningfully converse with anyone, so it was interesting.

See! This is exactly what I am talking about a change in attitude.

I think I need to rest I might be catching a fever.